Queen-Bohemian Rhapsody

Remembered vaguely Gee told me about this song that has 'bismillah' in it.

From Wikipedia

""Bohemian Rhapsody" is a song by the British rock band Queen. It was written by Freddie Mercury for the band's 1975 album A Night at the Opera. "Bohemian Rhapsody" is in the style of a stream-of-consciousness nightmare that has an unusual song structure, more akin to a classical rhapsody than popular music. The song has no chorus, instead consisting of three main parts including a ballad segment, an operatic passage, and a heavy rock solo. Because of its ambiguous style and arrangement, the song is rarely classified by the band or critics under a particular genre of music, however when done so it is usually described as a rock opera piece."

Menarik jugak lagu ni. Dah banyak orang cuba teka maksud lagu ni tapi kurang berjaya. Even the rest of the bandmates pun tak tau apa maksud Freddie Mercury untuk lagu ni.

Anyway, here's the link;




But through my definition, lagu ini sangat sedih. Macam tengah menunggu hukuman selepas melakukan kesalahan. Especially part yang aku boldkan bawah ni;

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy (Poor boy)
I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows
Doesn't really matter to me, to me

Mama just killed a man
Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life has just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye, everybody
I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, oooooooh (Anyway the wind blows)
I don't want to die
Sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

[Guitar Solo]

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouch, Scaramouch, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me
(Galileo) Galileo (Galileo) Galileo, Galileo Figaro
Magnifico-o-o-o-o
I'm just a poor boy nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity

Easy come, easy go, will you let me go?
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let me go (Will not let you go)
Let me go (Will not let you go) (Never, never, never, never)
Let me go, o, o, o, o
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
(Oh mama mia, mama mia) Mama Mia, let me go
Beelzebub has the devil put aside for me, for me, for me!

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here

[Guitar Solo]
(Oooh yeah, Oooh yeah)

Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters
Nothing really matters to me

Any way the wind blows...

Seram plak rasa.

Earth Hour 2010

Earth Hour-Malaysia

27 March 2010, 8.30-9.30 pm

To those who cares, let's do this :)

Get To Know Yourself Better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

(originally from here)

There's Always the First Time

Photoscape-d. Kinda like it.

1st posting for 2010

Dah berjanji kepada diri sendiri untuk blog at least once in 10 days. So here goes to my first posting for 2010.

I want to write about this 3 person I bumped into yesterday that made my feelings 'bercampur baur'. I did methadone dispensing yesterday. Memang la bila dipikir-pikirkan balik, i guess that is how life is. You can't avoid people in your life kan ;P. However, Nama sebenar adalah dirahsiakan.

1. MN. Dia adalah jejaka kacak yang kadang2 aku jumpa. Cara dia datang semalam adalah sangat surprising. Aku igtkan sapa yang terjenguk-jenguk kat luar bilik methadone. Rupanya dia, datang nak anta barang dari Kuantan. Looking good babe :) Seronoknya mencucik mata dengan awak~

2. MTMN. Dia adalah seorang patient methadone yang sangat minimal communication-nya. Tapi cam sial bila berkata-kata. Siap bawak kuar duit tunjuk kat aku bila aku tanya mana take away bottle (TAB) yang sepatutnya dia bawak aritu. Dan aku sumpah aku tak tuduh dia jual methadone. Dia pun punya lah bangang, bawak TAB orang lain punya. NAMPAK SANGAT LA BANGKAI! Bodoh punya orang macam ni pun ada la. Aku sgt lah marah sampai tangan aku menggigil-gigil. I was this close to calling the guards tapi bila dipikir-pikirkan tak payahlah. I let him go but i am thinking to do an official complaint to the FMS. Siap aku sumpah mamat ni accident lagik sampai mampus! (Dia adalah tempang dari previous MVA).

3. SAJ. Bercakap pasal dia adalah sesuai untuk posting lain hihihi :). Oh god aku tak prepare untuk berjumpa dengan dia semalam. Aku ada cara untuk mengelakkan berjumpa dengan dia sebab ....(aku adalah pemalu). Whenever i see his CCG4578 parked at the hospital compound, that is when i will try my very best to avoid his department. Tapi lain pulak jadinya semalam. Dan aku dah ushar baiik punya kat tempat parking takde kereta dia. So aku dengan riang gembiranya pergi lah ke dept dia. Selepas pertembungan dengan MTMN tuh, kiranya aku nak jalan2 la sekejap pergi sana. Bila aku bukak pintu jer, MASYOLOH ADA PULAK DIA ARINI!! Dalam hati aku cam berdebar-debar jap. Nak patah balik dah lambat, apa aku nak buat nih?? Tapi aku teruskan langkah aku jugak walaupun dah berat. Dia pulak cam expression-less jek bila nampak aku. Tengah busy kot. Kenapa laaa aku tak tengok cermin dulu sebelum pergi tempat dia?? Why oh why i am not that vain?? Pergh malu siut :)

Anyway, tu sajalah nak cerita. See you in 10 days, tops.

2010 New Year

haih. cepat betul masa berlalu. macam orang kata, time just flew by. kata Bunkface, in the blink of an eye, it's just another day~. dat is how i feel today. tomorrow will be the first day of 2010. semua orang cam excited gila welcoming 2010 (ie, status Facebook) but aku rasa sama je. mungkin sebab besok dan 2 hari seterusnya aku kena keje so tak rasa excited langsung nak sambut new year. anyway, as i was reminiscing the good memories and throwing the bad ones of '09, the whole thing got me thinking.
what have i done/achieved/get for the past 2009?

=====Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha=====

Pesanan kepada diri sendiri (dan juga kepada semua yang sedang membaca):

=> jangan OD-ed yourself with all the lemangs, rendangs and also ketupats.

and also....

today is the screening of the final episode of NURKASIH!!



malam ni, Jumaat 27 Nov 2009, pukul 9mlm di TV3 y'all~

Kamu di mana, bahagia?

Semua orang mencari bahagia. Takde sapa yang tak nak bahagia. I, for one, have been searching for that true meaning of bahagia. All my life. But to say I'm not bahagia all this while would sound understatement. Ridiculous, even.
I've been bahagia. Aku masih mempunyai ibu bapa, adik-beradik, kawan-kawan dan kenalan. Aku tiada kecacatan fizikal yang memungkinkan aku untuk disisihkan watsoever, and God forbid la in the future i will.
Aku bet kalo ditanya kepada orang2 lain, there are so many ways to be happy. Ada orang kata kalo duit banyak, dia akan bahagia. Ada orang kata pulak kalo ada teman, partner, jodoh, dia akan bahagia. Dan ada jugak kata kalo cantik, tampan, handsome barulah bahagia. Bahagia tang mana tak tau la kalo orang shallow macam tuh.

Leona Lewis-Happy
Verse 1:
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days i feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So and it's just that i can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

K.I.D.U.

Aku ingat lagi masa mak nak melahirkan Amri. Tak ingat hari apa tapi aku tau aritu aku balik dari pasar malam. Oh masa tu malam. Aku balik dari pasar malam dengan Angah. Sampai jek rumah, tengok mak dgn abah dah bersiap-siap nak pergi hospital. Aku, ika ngan Angah kene tinggal kat rumah. Lepas jek mak ngan abah pergi, kitorang panjat pagar pergi rumah jiran sebelah. Tak pasti apa motif kitorang nak pergi rumah sebelah tapi mungkin sebab aku yang ajak kot.
Anyway dalam pukul 10 macam tu abah pun balik. Kitorang bertiga pun balik la ke rumah. Abah pun cite mak dah lahirkan Amri. Masa tu kitorang cam happy la sebab nak dapat baby baru kat rumah. Ika pun sibuk2 tanya bila baby tu nak balik. Abah pun tucked us in to sleep dengan cite2 pasal baby baru tu.

CrushCrushCrush

Topik cilok dari Suria.
Masa sekolah menengah aku memang ada minat kat banyak-banyak orang tapi the biggest crush i had on somebody was when i was in F3. Dia adalah seorang senior F5, kelas 5 Akaun 2, nama dia Saiful Azhari bin Hasan aka Qatar. (Tu adalah nickname dia di kalangan kengkawan aku).

Crush:
Saiful Azhari bin Hasan.

Masa kejadian:
aku F3 dan dia F5.

Start to know him:
Masa aktif (wtf? aku tak aktif pun) PBSM sekolah.

Perilaku-perilaku gersang tak ingat:
#1:Kat sekolah kalau kelas agama mesti kene campur 2 kelas. Kalo time kelas agama dia akan datang kat kelas 5 Akaun 1 which was the opposite of my class. Memang heaven la aku masa tuh sebab aku duduk tepi tingkap. Sampai dah bleh hafal schedule kelas agama dia. Aku pernah kene tegur dengan cikgu BM sebab tak concentrate dalam kelas sebab asyik pandang luar jek. Nasib baik tak fail BM.

#2:Aku ada diari yang full of my luahanperasaanperasan terhadap dia. Kalo la dapat kat adik2 aku mesti kene gelak menganjing gila. Dah la jiwang tahap dewa, pastu siap ngan poems, lirik2 lagu ngan daily updates of segala yang berlaku berkenaan dengan dia. Dia datang sekolah dengan motor so agak cool la. Pastu aku akan terasa hati plak (wth?) kalo nampak dia bercakap dengan other girls kat sekolah. So penuhlaa entry diari aku hari tu.

#3:Dekda my bestfren back in school pernah bagi phone number aku kat dia. Dan dia called during my birthday!! Memang aku elated dan high masa dia called. Aku bahasakan diri 'aku-kau' je ngan dia. Lepas tu kalo jumpa je kat sekolah aku akan buat tak kenal sebab aku MALUUU sangat nak bertentang mata ngan dia. Peh memang aku fell head over heels la ngan mamat nih. *Guling2 bila teringat balik*

#4: Aku pernah menangis pasal dia sebab aku dengar dia sakit. Turned out to be NOT TRUE! Serius membazir my tears ahahaha.

Seriously aku tak pernah ada perasaan begini kuat terhadap seseorang sebelum dan selepas mamat ni. Lepas jer dia abes SPM dia still ada kol tapi cam sekejap2 pastu dah takde. Maybe dat time i was naive so i poured all of my heart and soul (ewah) to this guy. But back then aku takde pun nak kapel ke hape ngan mamat nih cuma minat dari jauh yang menggunung tinggi. Bila dah kenal ngan dia the thrill pun kurang. Nak2 plak wavelength ngan chemistry takder. Sebab tu la bila dah start kawan ngan dia level of kegersangan pun dah berkurang. Elok benar la tuh. Dreams vs reality.

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down
Just get back up when it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down
Just get back up when it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Keri Hilson-Knock You Down

I wonder when will i feel this strong towards someone else again? *sigh*

Sesaje Mengade...

Upload a picture of you in a position that you hated the most


FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU :
1.along
2.rina
3.ina
4.sarah

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE :
1.27/2
2.14/1
3.12/7
4.21/8 and 3/11

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1.iftar
2.wat nescafe
3.online
4.dengar berita (bukan tengok~~ heeh...)

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY :
1.smile always
2.stay calm and collected
3.stay in touch with family
4.remember Allah always

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST :
1.Ex-bf (hope you're happy)
2.Oze Farameela bt Otoh
3.Saiful Azhari (my biggest crush during f3)
4.frens back in KMPP and UKM

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1.video cam
2.perfumes
3.telekung (i really need a new one!)
4.err can money be considered as gifts?

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES :
1.online
2.listening to my iPod
3.reading magazines
4.watching DVD

FOUR PLACES OR COUNTRY YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION :
1.korea
2.australia
3.bali (again!)
4.islands in Malaysia, starting with Pulau Perhentian

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS :
1.nescafe
2.laici kang
3.sirap bandung
4.iced blended mocha/cappucino from Secret Recipe

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG/HANDBAG :
1.purse
2.cellphone/PDA
3.keys
4.pen

FOUR FAVOURITE COLORS :
1.white
2.black
3.blue
4.pink

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS :
1.dalam pagar
2.home in Jengka/Serdang
3.The Mines
4.maulana flat bosnia

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH :
1.parents
2.siblings
3.close frens
4.future spouse (where r u?)

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU :
1.friendship
2.loyalty
3.having a perfect smooth day
4.people surrounding me

TOP FOUR WHO YOU WILL TAGGED:
1.everyone
2.who
3.read
4.this.

Birthday SMSes

aku sudah genap 26 tahun pada 1 ogos lepas. Alhamdulillah i make it till today. No clinical manifestation of depression, no nervous breakdown whatsoever ataupun life-long trauma. Some frens remembered, some frens don't, adatlah. To those who remembered, thank you so much, to those who didn't, nak wat camna.
Some of the SMSes i received during my birthday;

"Hepi bosday!" from Azrin. Simple as that.

"12 hours since u've been 26, feel any different? Dun worry u'll feel it soon. As u get older, the senses become less sensitive. Ahaks, jk! Many happy returns!" from G. Siut tak?

"Epi bufday 26th, sis! :) Semoga hidup sentiasa dirahmati-Nya..em..huhu.." from Fiqa my brother's gf. Ain't that Sweet?

" Hepi2 besday 2 you!" from Angah. Mesej awek die lagi panjang. Aparaa~~

" Happy birthday inaaa! :) MANA?? MANA?!!" from Michelle. Lawak ni hanya dia, aku ngan Kim je yang paham.

"Aku harap umur ko yang ke29 dah kawin cz Farah akan kawin bla bla bla....." yang ni daripada kezen aku yang sebaya nama Idah. Dah kawen dan beranak. Thanks a lot for setting up the 'pressurized' benchmark doh!

"I pray to Allah grant ur MIND free from WORRY, a HEART free from SADNESS, a soul free from SIN, a BODY free from ILLNESS" from Ana. Thanks thanks~

yang paling first sampai dan paling special adalah dari Oze... thanks :) too private to be mentioned here. Rindu kat ko!

So little time...

Peh. Lama dah tak memblogging. Banyak mende nak kene buat, masa dan mood membataskan segala2. Mula bergiat aktif dalam netball, main untuk team hospital. Saja je nak ader aktiviti petang2 selain tido dan melepak tengok tv lepas kerja.
Anyway,sangat2 minat kat lagu ni lepas tertengok citer 'Rahasia Pelangi' kat TV3. Macam akan ikut je citer ni :)

Tercipta Untukku-Ungu

First Entry of 2009

it has been awhile since i last wrote. nothing much happened i guess. took a long break before new year and celebrated (not really, i slept at 11) new year in Serdang. jadik driver for my mum during the long break. pegi balik alor setar in 2 days, then pegi kuantan balik hari. gila betul.
awal muharam and new year pun dah lepas. takde ape resolution pun. i don't believe in it pung. but i really really like this petua i got from a fren of mine, on how to be happy. and Allah knows how desperate i am to be happy instead of moping around feeling depressed. nak nak lepas kene rejek nieee~

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Sleep for at least 7 hours each day.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2008.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink plenty of water.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
18. Smile and laugh more.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
27. GOD Heals everything.
28. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
29. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
30. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
31. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
32. The best is yet to come.
33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
34. Do the right thing!
35. Call your family often.
36. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
37. Each day give something good to others.
38. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
39. When you wake up in the morning, thank GOD for being alive.
40. Share this with everyone you care about.

9 days to go before Tahun Baru 2009

yep. dah nak masuk 2009 dah.sedar tak sedar, pejam celik makan tidur berak, dah nak masuk tahun baru.ape pencapaian aku tahun ni ek? tetiba rasa nak muhasabah diri lepas boss panggil untuk yearly SKT jumaat lepas. well tahun ni aku dapat merasa buat keje sendiri, tak mcam HTAA asik2 bawah hidung orang jek. pastu keje pengurusan pun byk, 6-monthly, 3-monthly reten yang kene buat (asik lewat jer). huahuahua. not forgetting KMK yang berjalan dengan lancar walaupun agak lembap sekali (huahuahuaha). tapi alhamdulillah aku belajar banyak tahun ni. belajar nak handle staffs, handle pengurusan tapi masih blom belajar nak handle stress very WELL. dah pandai nak gastrik pulak perut aku, seriously. dulu tak pernah camni. hish.
on the other hand, aku dah beli iPod nano yang diidam-idamkan. tapi seriously mac punya product punya la susah nak dihandle. kene d/load itunes la, sync ntah pape, register watnot tak macam sony mp3 yang bleh drag-and-drop je. menyesal gak tapi lagi menyesal kalo tak beli. dah menjadi cita2 aku utk mempossess iPod mp3 bila dah keje. aku belik yang ijau! sangat cute n aku sangat2 bersyukur sebab ade mende ni. huhuhu~
gonna update the blog before 2009. maybe aku sambut new year kat ipoh. lom confirm lagi. bye!

Dating Dating Dating

nervous breakdown. dating for the first time still brings flutter in my heartbeat, butterfly in my stomach. especially with a guy you might really really like in the future. eheh.

baju - gosok. CHECK.
matching tudung. CHECK.
seluar. CHECK.
underwear. CHECK. CHECK.
bedak. CHECK.
muka. CHECK.
gigi. CHECK.
body odour. CHECK. WANGI. CK'S EUPHORIA BLOSSOM. heh

had to tangguh for 15 mins. rasa nak terberak. nervous nervous.

back from the first date: gembira.tak.terkata.

had to cut it short tho takut tak sempat maghrib. all the anxiety hilang. die pun manusia biasa jugak kan. ader flaws gak. nape laa takut sangat inaa??

anyway it's too early to say whether this one is gonna 'jadi' or not. if jadi, hopefully Allah akan permudahkan. if not, wat to do? tidak tersurat di Loh Mahfuz kan? easy breezy~

Lagu Yang Dimainkan Untuk Majlis Perkahwinan

berikut lagu2 yang aku harap dapat dimainkan oleh mr.dj semasa hari perkahwinan aku (?) dalam masa ........... tahun lagi (isi sendiri di masa hadapan)

1. As-Mary J. Blige & George Michael
2. Kerna-Ruffedge
3. You're The One That I Want-John Travolta & Olivia Newton-John
4. Ayu-V.E.
5. Saat Bahagia-V.E. & Ruffedge
6. Keabadian Cinta-Anuar Zain
7. I Finally Found Someone-Bryan Adams & Barbara Streisand

list ni akan diupdatekan dari masa ke semasa

The Age I Wish To Go Back To

hahaha. sangat menarik ini tajuk. since aku asik merapu2 jer kat blog ni so aku pun rasa tajuk ini sangat menarik untuk dikupas dan dikarang di sini. ada 2 umur yang aku rasa nak go back to, since ader satu umo yang mana aku dah buat kesalahan besar n dikesali sepanjang hayat (i still am).
aku kalo boleh nak ulang semula umo 15 tahun since aku kenal 'cinta' masa umo tu laa. see i'm not the most popular girl in school but i had a small group of frens yang masa tu ader g-hah, dekda, along & angah, michelle, kim n rush. masa tu aku aktif gak ngan PBSM. so aku mula kenal Qatar (bukan nama sebenar, nama samaran jer) kat situ la. masa aku f3 dier dah f5. dan muka dier ade sedikit iras2 Anuar Zain (yang sgt hot pada masa itu). dier dipanggil Qatar sbb dier selalu pakai jersi Qatar 13 warna putih masa PBSM punya perjumpaan. as a birthday gift, dekda bagi no tipon aku kat mamat ni untuk tipon aku on my birthday! memang la masa tu aku happy giler. i was on cloud nine lepas tu. tapi aku tak pena cakap ngan dier depan2 sbab aku malu sangat :( tapi sepanjang aku F3 tu memang gile ah. all the stalking, running away when got caught, all this being jealous when he talks to other gals n i had my diary full of his acts, when i meet him, what he's wearing today bla bla bla. ahahaha kitorang bukannya kapel pun lepas dier initiate that phone call but somehow rather as mutual frens jek kitorang jadik. cakap pun aku-kau jek. so nothing special really happened back then. agaknya dier kat mana skrang. rindulah zaman dulu kala....