당신은 특히 ^.^

#7 sms

"AwaK
AkAn
rAsE
gEmBiRe
BiLE
AwaK
tAU
aDe OrG
Syg
AwaK

aDe OrG
RiNdU
AwaK

Ade oRg
Suke
AwaK

tP
rAse LeBiH
GmBiRe biLe
Tau
aDe OrG
x pErnAh
LuPeKan
aWak.."

NeYo-Never Knew I Needed

ooh..
for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
(oh yeah)

for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you’re something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don’t wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

c/o
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after)
(oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you’re the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

who’d knew that i’d be here (who’d knew that i’d be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl you’re the..
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it’s so clear i need you here always

Surtout Pour Vous ^.^

#5 sms

"Apa itu KAWAN?

K=kehadirannya menceriakan
A=antaranya tiada kecurigaan
W=walaupun jauh dekat di hati
A=ambil berat
N=namanya sentiasa diingati (?_?)
Gudnite"

#6 sms

.:i!i!i:..:i!i!i:.
(i!i sweet !i!)
'+dreams+'
"+;,:+"
i
give you
my heart..
for u
to use as a
pillow..
hope that u can feel
comfortable
Good Nite...


adoiii~~~

Especially Por Tu ^.^

sambung lagi..

#3 sms
-> a cute one.

()". . "()
( ,o )
(_3€_)
Dah tidur ke?
()""..()
("'( ,o)
( €_)
Cuba tengok sikit...
()". ."()
( ("') )
(_/(_) Laa.. dah meleleh
air liur.. GD NITE :)

#4 sms
-> melalut yang menyenangkan :)

"Jika pulau e2 indah, indah lg
sbuah pertemuan, jke gnong
e2 tggi, tgi lgi penghargan
pde sbuah pshabatan, jke
laut e2 luas e2 lah jrak yg
memisahkan,dn ble hujan
trun smua flora dan fauna
kn sgar, bgitu lah sgar nye
igatan ku pde mu...Slmt
Malam"

adoii~~~

Especially For You ^.^

I do not really know what will happen or how it may ends, but if look back at these sms-es will definitely make me feel it is all worthwhile.

#1 SMS
->received during the makan-makan at our house on April '09. i thought it was from somebody else. at this time i was 'confused' with someone else. that fucking creep :P

()""() ()""()
( ." o o", )
i just wanna give a big
SMILE
()""()""()
('O')('O')...for a person i
dont get to see everyday
but i CARE always..Gudnite

#2 sms
M'cri sOrg TEMAN bagaikn
m'cri sebiji benih pOkOk dlm
semak b'duri..b'sedialh utk
dilukai,jgn m'nglh utk trus
m'cri..andai sudh kau temui
sygilh ia spnuh hati..slamt mlm

ada lagii~~
adoi la. macam2 owh. but waking up to this sms will absolutely make ur day! for me it is :P
^.^

A Wise Woman

Ladies,
As I continue to age, I value older women most of all.
Here are just a few reasons why ...

Older woman will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think.

If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And it's usually something more interesting.

An older woman knows herself well enough to be assured in who she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few older women give a damn what you might think about her or what she's doing.

Older women are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it.

An older woman usually has had her fill of "meaningful relationships" and "commitment." The last thing she wants in her life is another dopey, clingy, whiny, dependent lover.

Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated.

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to an older woman. They already know.

An older woman has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends. A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women. Older women couldn't care less.

An older woman looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not true of younger women or drag queens. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, an older woman is far sexier than her younger counterpart.

Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off you are a jerk if you are acting like one.

You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her ... Yes, we praise older women for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not always reciprocal.

For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed, hot woman of 40+ ... there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year-old waitress.

Ladies, I apologize for all of us.

(originally posted here)

LoSiNg

=Someone i know lost her baby a few weeks ago. I was told she was very devastated and couldn't stop crying over her loss. I met her before she miscarried so it came as a shock to hear about her unfortunate loss.

loss
The condition of being deprived or bereaved of something or someone
(thefreedictionary.com)

I hope she will be okay. Insyaallah.

fabulous duet!

Beyonce Ft Lady Gaga-Video Phone
Shawty, what yo name is?

Them hustlers keep on talkin'
They like the way I'm walkin'
You saying that you want me
So press record, I'll let you film me

On your video phone, make a cameo
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

I love how you approach me
Fresh white with your pants hangin' grown man low
Everything you sayin' soundin' good to me
No need to convince me anymore

Swag up, it's right, one blade, it's tight
And I smell your cologne in the air
Baby you doin' somethin' right
You just cancelled every other man here

You say you like my bag and the color of my nails
You can see that I got it goin' on
I wanna make sure you remember me
So I'ma leave my number on your video phone

I got no time for frontin'
I know just what I'm wantin'
If it's gonna be you and me
When I call, they better see me on your video screen

Them hustlers keep on talkin'
They like the way I'm walkin'
You saying that you want me
So press record, I'll let you film me

On your video phone, make a cameo
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

You my phone star
And I'm happy when my lights flashin'
'Cause you on my receiver
Hubba, hubba
Honey, baby is so sexy that he should win an Oscar

And when you miss me, just remember that I always got you with me
I'll be your Gene, you'll be my Brando
I'ma put you in my movie if you think that you can handle (Can you handle it?)

I know you like that (Can you handle it?)
Turn you into a star, I got it like that (Can you handle it?)
Baby don't fight it, (Tell 'em, B), 'cause when I miss yo call (Can you handle it?)
I hit you right back on my video phone (You like what you see?)

Them hustlas like my fashion (You wanna video me?)
They like the way I'm walkin' (You like what you see?)
You sayin' that you want me (Go on and video me)
So press record, I'll let you film me

On your video phone, make a cameo
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

Can you handle it?
Can you handle it? (Tell 'em, B)
Can you handle it?
Can you handle it?

You like what you see? (Can you handle it?)
You wanna video me? (Can you handle it?)
You like what you see? (Can you handle it?)
Go on and video me (Can you handle it?)
You like what you see? (Can you handle it?)
You wanna video me?

You know them Gs, they be hollerin', 'specially them hot ones
Brooklyn, Atlanta, Houston, to New Orleans
When they see me, they be like "Yo B, let me call you"
You breakin' my focus, boy, you cute and you ballin'

You like it when I shake it?
Shawty on a mission, what yo name is?
What, you want me naked?
If you likin' this position you can tape it on your video phone

Hustla keep on talkin'
You like the way it's poppin'
You sayin' that you want me
Press record and baby, film me

On your video phone, make a cameo (Film me)
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you (Film me)
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video (Film Me)
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

Uh, uh, uh, ah, uh
Uh, uh, uh, ah, uh
(If you want me you can watch me on your) Video phone

Oh,brother! 2

Januari 2010

"Amri, along nak cakap jap." Aku panggil dia. Dia yang baru lepas mandi, datang ke arahku.

"Amri buat apa keluar malam-malam, even hari sekolah pun?" Dia diam. Aku tanya lagi, "Pergi mana?"

"Amri pergi rumah kawan je. Main gitar, sembang2. Tu je." Muka dia dah keruh.

"Tau tak tahun ni Amri nak PMR? Membazir masa tau. Masa yang Amri keluar malam-malam ni patutnya boleh untuk buat homework, revision.Sekejap je nak bulan 10 Amri. Sekejap je Amri tak kuar malam ni. Lepas PMR ni nak kuar dari rumah tak balik-balik pun takpe." Muka dia lagii keruh.

"Amri tau. Tapi bulan ni je. Next month Amri dah tak keluar dah." Muka penuh harapan, muka adikku yang masih kecil dan mentah mengeluarkan janji. Ah, aku cair!

"Okay. Tapi Amri ingat Amri buat semua untuk Amri jugak. Bukan untuk Emak, Abah, Along ngan yang lain-lain." Dia angguk.

Hari ini adalah 5 Februari 2010, pukul 9.14 malam, dia takde kat rumah. God, he must really hate me. Headache :(

Oh, brother!

Yea i'm down with conjunctivitis. Sakit mata la wehh. Dapat MC 3 hari. First day aku keje gak half day sebab ada meeting CPD, 2nd day aku bermalas-malasan kat rumah sambil melakukan kerja2 rumah dan today, the 3rd day, aku dah bosan gila. Dah hampir 48jam++ aku tak cecah kaki kat luar huhuhu. Tapi aku rasa my eyes are not getting any better. Might as well carik MO jap g eheh. Ntah2 dapat MC lagik :P

Anyhoo...

Mak ada kol semalam. Die ngan Abah pergi sekolah Kidu. Duduk sekali berbincang dengan cikgu kaunselor kat bilik kaunseling. Ada la sesi peluahan perasaan. Kidu dah tak tahan sekolah kat SI sebab kawan2 pulaukan dia. On what account, we still haven't got a clue. He admitted he was 'mentally bullied' with all the silent treatment or cynical remarks from his classmates. Dia ada mengaku dengan emak yang dia dibuli di sekolah, tapi mak pujuk untuk teruskan sekolah sampai abes Form 3. He okayed it. Tau2 dia dah ponteng sekolah 3 days in a row, lepak kat CC.
Cikgu dia bagi a week untuk fikirkan pasal hal tukar sekolah. Aku pun tak tau macam mana dia jadik such a quitter like this. And i was also sad because he never mentioned any of this before. Yang aku tau die kerap hang out dengan kawan2 dia yang aku nampak sebagai bad influence to him especially this one particular boy, F yang memang aku ngan Ika tak approve of.
He should know better to focus in school instead of wasting his time on 'friends'. He should know better in the future none of this so-called 'friends' wud last. Mak abah bersusah payah carik duit for his education, especially mak yang dah buat savings for his college so that dia takyah amek PTPTN nanti.
I just hope he will realise this sebab nothing in this world comes in handy. He has to learn that he is doing it only for himself coz Allah won't change one's fate unless he works for it.

Worrying for my little brother might give me ulcer one day ;(

Stress suck!

++Okay, i am under a lot of stress lately. What's with the problem at work, personal, dengan adik yang tidak mendengar kata, membuatkan aku susah nak lena tidur dan ended up snoozed my alarm for several times every morning. Someone said i looked pucat today. She asked me what was wrong. I told her i was fine, tapi aku tau aku tak OK. I need to sort out me problems, hopefully relieving some of this burden away.
++A good friend of mine once advised me not to put too much hope on people. People has a way somehow to do wat they thot they shud do without ever knowing or considering how it may affect other people. She has gone too many to know, once you put your hopes to high, people can surprise you in a way you never know how. Time and time again, i tried not to, but time and time again i failed. When will i learn?

Tetiba teringat, Mika dalam Lollipop kata,

Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down.
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down

Somehow it all seems ironic. Rasa cam nak carik any funny movie dan ketawa sampai menangis.