tioman, here i come!

ish tak saba nak vacay ke tioman nih. away from work, worries and the most important of all, celebrating my birthday! hahaha aku sudah tua. dah 25 tahun dah aku bernafas di muka bumi ni. so many things to do but so little time. ah nvm, just seize the day.

can't wait! :)

1 ogos 1 ogos~

huhu. solar eclipse akan menjelma pada hari jadi ku tahun ni~

sila baca

lagu yang paling digemari satu ketika dulu

My Own Worst Enemy-Lit
Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk
I didnt mean to call you that
I cant remember what was said or what you threw at me
Please tell me
Please tell me why
My car is in the front yard
And Im sleeping with my clothes on
I came in through the window last night
And youre gone
Its no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy
Cuz every now and then I kick the living sh*t out of me
The smoke alarm is going off and theres a cigarette
Still burning
Please tell me why
My car is in the front yard
And Im sleeping with my clothes on
I came in through the window last night
And youre gone
Please tell me why
My car is in the front yard
And Im sleeping with my clothes on
I came in through the window last night
Its no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy
Cuz every now and then I kick the living sh*t out of me
Can we forget about the the things I said when I was drunk
I didnt mean to call you that

Aku yang menghampiri suku abad~

hui aku sudah tua. heh. anyway sudah 5 hari berturut2 aku asyik memandu jauh je. my back pun aching like crazy. memula jumaat tu balik serdang, sabtu gi jalan2 kat sana-sini, ahad balik jengka, isnin pegi kuantan n selasa pegi maran. fuh, i'm glad it's finally over. malas dah nak bawak kete besok. rehat jap :)
masa on the way nak balik jengka tuh, ader one massive traffic jam kat hiway karak. so banyak gile la kete terstuck kat jalan (2 lanes) and tak bergerak almost 10 mins. and i have to admit aku ader sedikit anxiety attack yang wat aku tak boleh nak dok diam. tapi aku bukan nak citer pasal anxiety ni la. aku nak lepas geram kat orang2 bodoh yang masuk emergency lane kat sebelah kiri sekali tu sebab nak cepat jalan. tapi yang sebenar2nya depa ni laa yang wat jam lagi bertambah teruk sebab kalo tak camne tow truck nak lalu kalo berketul2 kete penuh kat every lanes? cam bangang. memang aku mencarut masa jam tuh dan curse orang2 yang camni la. siut kan?

Wordle

cool sungguh website nih. pegi la google this website-Wordle



macam mana nak penuhkan satu muka ngan words tu? still tak paham

Sabtu ini

keje for this weekend. feeling like shit all week. having the same flu upon getting up everyday n sleeps with an Actifed, Benadryl and PCM combo to ease the throbbing headache and blocked nose every night. ouch. not having a very good week i guess. got lots n lots of work to do but yet still so malas to do. the MTAC discussion with fun asik2 kene raincheck. so sorry fun!
anyway, it is already July. full of birthdays of so many people that i know of.

1. gee's july 5th (25)
2. liya's 9th (25)
3. afiq's 10th (25)
4. ika's 12th (sweet 18-cepatnya masa berlalu)
5. dekda's 16th (25)
6. deja's 19th (25)
7. aizudin's 21st (25)
8. ezuan's 25th (25)

and last but not least, the most remembered date in my entire life, HIS july 22nd. eventho we are no longer together but i will always pray for his kesejahteraan dan kebahagiaan.
sigh. gotta stop hurting myself like this. this is what happen when july comes. when will i ever forget?

Alone

how can people be so selfish? this is the question i've been asking myself for a long time. when i tot i can count on someone, then this someone will let me down. have i been putting too much hope on people? coz truthfully eventho i have lots of frens but nobody can be counted as frens. take people around me for instance. when i do good to them unconditionally, what i get? DISAPPOINTMENT. i've been hurt so many times before. this time it's the same thing again. when will i get over with this mistake of putting too much hope on people and believing they will do good to you? people nowadays can't be trusted anymore. at least that's what i believe now. won't let myself get too close to anybody now. ever. coz what will they bring? MISERY.

f**k you heartless two face b***h

lega

i am mentally exhausted

me having fun with myself *pathetic


i am i am. but am going to sort this out.

Cake-I Will Survive

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

Lagu Yang Dimainkan Untuk Majlis Perkahwinan

berikut lagu2 yang aku harap dapat dimainkan oleh mr.dj semasa hari perkahwinan aku (?) dalam masa ........... tahun lagi (isi sendiri di masa hadapan)

1. As-Mary J. Blige & George Michael
2. Kerna-Ruffedge
3. You're The One That I Want-John Travolta & Olivia Newton-John
4. Ayu-V.E.
5. Saat Bahagia-V.E. & Ruffedge
6. Keabadian Cinta-Anuar Zain
7. I Finally Found Someone-Bryan Adams & Barbara Streisand

list ni akan diupdatekan dari masa ke semasa

don't ever get your hopes high, especially on people

how true. lately aku rasa semua orang di sekeliling aku sangat selfish n disappointing. aku dah la rasa lonely sometimes but then eventho aku berada di tempat yang penuh dengan orang tapi keadaan diorang tu bukan aku rasa annoyed. bila nak mintak tolong tu kemain lagi merayu, cakap lembut2 tapi bila aku mintak tolong lak, boleeh lak lupa. dah la dah lama aku btau. ish geram tul. geram aku geram!!!

ika dah selamat register kat kolej poly-tech mara. harap2 dier dapat adjust herself well coz aku tgk tpt tu cam tak selesa sangat (hostel). macam2 mak beli untuk dier. masa aku masuk kmpp pun tak cam tu. arap2 lepas ni ika akan blaja betul2 la. kalo dier wat taik gak macam spm tu tak tau la aku :( aku hanya mampu mendoakan dier berubah sket la dari perangai dier dulu. aku ni risaukan adik2 yang takkan abes :(

the thing is rite now i'm mentally exhausted.

beautiful song

Mary J Blige Lyrics
As Lyrics