Paramore-The Only Exception

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I’m
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t
Let go of what’s in front of me here
I know you’re leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream

Ohh—

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I’m on my way to believing
Oh, And I’m on my way to believing

Ko Ni Kenapa?

"Lenkali lintas cepat2. Sy igt tak sempat nak brek dah."

No reply. Aku dah pkir macam2, rasa nak mencarut pun ada. Nak kata salah orang ke tak? Nak minta maap ke tak? Tak tenang sepanjang perjalanan aku ke Temerloh.

Okay, fine. Are you that sensitive, little remarks like that pun dah mencalarkan hati kau?
I AM SORRY >.<

Dah tak balas2 sampai malam, buat aku teringat2 macam gila, tetiba mesej cute plak masuk.

MALAS AKU NAK LAYAN BANGKAI. Kalo nak kira kecik ati ngan nko, agaknya aku dah takde hati dah kot.

Tapi kenapa hati meronta-ronta dong? Ahh... pening dehh~

It Could've Been Me

I say a little prayer

Kami bertarawih bersama-sama hari itu. Not by my choice, i have to say. If i can redo this event, i will not be there. That was the last place i wanted to be at that very time.
As all of the ma'mum sujud, sayup2 i terdengar suara die ketika sujud. And terlintas dalam hati, i really really want this guy. Within seconds my conscience said; you can't have this guy. Look at you, and look at him and look at her. So with tears, i prayed;
" Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan untuk memaafkan dan melupakan. Hanya kepada-Mu ku berserah "

Err...hung up?

Him: Hello Unit ****
Me: Err.. hello ***. Ni ada patient methadone.. eh, saya nak tumpang methadone untuk patient methadone saya ni. Dia datang lambat. Nak letak kat ***
Him: Ada sorang je ke?
Me:..
Him: Ok ok.

letak telefon.

bummer. i am in denial. obviously i still have feelings for him that even my body couldn't deny. the response was the ultimate evidence of all. what should i do?

bummer. shit shit shit. damn.

Selsema babi betul!

Siut tak...

Lepas tengok He's Just Not that Into You, aku berazam untuk tidak mengingati SA (too Much) and wondering why he doesn't call/sms. Anyway, dalam tengah2nak lena tu tetiba ada bunyik sms masuk, sms daripada dia.

"Awak
akan
gembire
bila
awak
tau ade org
syg
awk

ade org
rindu
awak

ade org
suke
awak

tp
rase lebih
gembire bile
tau
adeo rg
x pernah
lupekan
awak..."

Rasa macam selsema babi tak?? Ish laa.. macam mana nii?? Dah la masa tu tgh lagu Liz Phair-Why Can't I dalam ipod. Terus rasa nak pengsan.

why can't i breathe
whenever i think about you
why can't i speak
whenever i talk about you
it's inevitable
it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
so tell me
why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you

WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT YOU????

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

oh bulan
enggan melayan diriku lagi
pabila
airmata membasahi pipi
dan lagu lagu di radio
seolah olah memerli aku
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaan benci ini
sebenarnya cinta
yang masih
bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
disebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga
merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah
jatuh ke bumi
disaat kau benar benar mahu pergi
seperti
ku bernafas dalam air

dan sebenarnya
aku rindu
aku tak mampu
tanpamu

*dush! dush! dush! macam kena sebijik2 kat aku lirik lagu ni...*

hey you.long time no see

bak kata Ezo, aku tengah mengayuh. kayuh kene perlahan2, jangan bagi jatuh kot. but at the rate i'm cycling now, cam abang beca je. tahap bersiar2. mungkin aku kene belajar bersabar. Kalo ada, ada la. kalo takde, nak wat camne? Sedang bersiar2 tu mungkin aku akan terjumpa sesuatu, mana tau :)

"Akukan Ada?"

i wish i had the courage to say that to a very special fren of mine when he was wounded with unrequited love last time. he never sees me that way, anyway. memang btul laa lelaki ngan perempuan susah nak berkawan. purely platonic friendship between man and woman memang susah nak dicarik.

boundary antara friendship and love memang samar2 je. and aku selalu terperangkap antara line nih. eiii frustnyaa~