FTW

oh boy, i dun like the wait for your reply to my anything.
the thing is, you turn my world upside down.
and the truth is, i dun like this feeling at all.

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is this ........ LOVE?






(posted under the influence of nasi goreng USA overdose)

Cumelss ^.^

Kecewa Dengan Diri Sendiri

Kecewanya aku.

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots and
the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you made me laugh,
even worst when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around and
the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close, not even a little bit,
not even at all.

Sheila On 7-Hari Bersamanya

Hari telah terganti
Tak bisa ku hindari
Tibalah saat ini bertemu dengannya

Jantungku berdegup cepat
Kaki bergetar hebat
Akankah aku ulangi merusak harinya

[*]
Mohon Tuhan
Untuk kali ini saja
Beri aku kekuatan
‘tuk menatap matanya

[**]
Mohon Tuhan
Untuk kali ini saja
Lancarkanlah hariku
Hariku bersamanya
Hariku bersamanya

Kau tahu betapa aku
Lemah dihadapannya
Kau tahu berapa lama
Aku mendambakannya

Back to [*][**]

Tuhan tolonglah (beri kesempatan)
Tuhan tolonglah (beri kesempatan)

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Hariku bersamanya
Hari bersamanya
Hari bersamanya
Hari bersamanya
Hari bersamanya
Hari bersamanya
Hari bersamanya

Tuhan tolonglah
Hari bersamanya
Tuhan tolonglah
Hari bersamanya

things worth holding on to

if you are to Google 'things worth holding on to', 39,800,000 results will be generated.
but if you search for names worth holding on to in me, one of the name would be his.

jiwang siot

;)

Eid 2010

Alhamdulillah, everything went well.
Despite the fact that one of us couldn't be there.

Black-Sofea Jane

wo. macam kene tampar ohh~

Eid 1431H

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.
Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki.

Adoi.

i could not stop smiling today.
a small gesture took me by surprise.
on the verge of getting myself falling.

please help me =.='

Nika Neomu Kuiyeoua

it's been a while,eh? been busy with...stuff (aka too lazy to update). anyway, i'm totally crazy about this korean series, Pasta right now. got three more episodes to go ;)
sangat suka one of the songs in their OST, "You're Cute" by Kim Jung-Ah. ahh can loop this song over and over and over again~ (over sungguh)
by the way, take a look at the subtitle for the song, sangat cute!




credit to: Youtube

Queen-Bohemian Rhapsody

Remembered vaguely Gee told me about this song that has 'bismillah' in it.

From Wikipedia

""Bohemian Rhapsody" is a song by the British rock band Queen. It was written by Freddie Mercury for the band's 1975 album A Night at the Opera. "Bohemian Rhapsody" is in the style of a stream-of-consciousness nightmare that has an unusual song structure, more akin to a classical rhapsody than popular music. The song has no chorus, instead consisting of three main parts including a ballad segment, an operatic passage, and a heavy rock solo. Because of its ambiguous style and arrangement, the song is rarely classified by the band or critics under a particular genre of music, however when done so it is usually described as a rock opera piece."

Menarik jugak lagu ni. Dah banyak orang cuba teka maksud lagu ni tapi kurang berjaya. Even the rest of the bandmates pun tak tau apa maksud Freddie Mercury untuk lagu ni.

Anyway, here's the link;




But through my definition, lagu ini sangat sedih. Macam tengah menunggu hukuman selepas melakukan kesalahan. Especially part yang aku boldkan bawah ni;

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy (Poor boy)
I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows
Doesn't really matter to me, to me

Mama just killed a man
Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life has just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye, everybody
I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, oooooooh (Anyway the wind blows)
I don't want to die
Sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

[Guitar Solo]

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouch, Scaramouch, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me
(Galileo) Galileo (Galileo) Galileo, Galileo Figaro
Magnifico-o-o-o-o
I'm just a poor boy nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity

Easy come, easy go, will you let me go?
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let me go (Will not let you go)
Let me go (Will not let you go) (Never, never, never, never)
Let me go, o, o, o, o
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
(Oh mama mia, mama mia) Mama Mia, let me go
Beelzebub has the devil put aside for me, for me, for me!

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here

[Guitar Solo]
(Oooh yeah, Oooh yeah)

Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters
Nothing really matters to me

Any way the wind blows...

Seram plak rasa.

Low Motivation

sangat sangat sangatttttttt malas kerja!!!

Penat!

Hari-hari aku berlalu dengan blur. Seriously aku terasa sangat penat. Balik dari Kuching, terus pergi seminar kat Gambang, dan kerja sampai hari ini.

Anywho....

Trip to Kuching was magnificent. The 2 Gees itu adalah the best. Short note on the trip;

Day 1
Landed Kuching around 10am. Terus pergi ke hotel untuk check-in. We all stayed at Harbour View Hotel, loved it! Jalan2 kat Main Bazaar, had lunch and balik hotel. Baru realised aku period. Petang pegi Sarawak Cultural Village dengan John, a friend we got to know at the airport. Malam dinner kat Barok, as suggested by Azrin. Midin goreng belacan is the best!

Day 2
Naik bas pegi ke jeti Taman Negara Bako. Naik bot untuk pergi ke sana, dalam setengah jam or so. Nampak dolphin! Tapi dari jauh je la. Sampai Bako, hiking macam nak gila ke Pantai Teluk Pandan Kechil untuk tengok seastack yang kononnya magnificent. Memang gila penat! Lunch (more like tea) kat Waterfront n terus balik tido. Malam dinner kat Top Spot Restaurant.

Day 3
Shopping time! Abes 3 jam jalan dari HV ke Electra House. Bought kek lapis, some T-shirts and souveniers for colleagues. Petang jalan2 kat Tun Jugah Mall n Sarawak Plaza. Malam dinner kat Waterfront (lagi) and watched live band kat Hilton Hotel. Very perfect ending.

Day 4
Pegi ke Satok, beli ikan terubuk masin yang feymes tu n jalan2 buat kalo terakhir di Main Bazaar. Naik teksi ke airport dan berangkat pulang.

Luggage aku masa balik almost 20kg. Memang gila. Dah la ada around 10 kek lapis aku beli. Sampai rumah around 9pm. Penat!

Dakmie-Yang Terindah

Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia~~

Camwhoring Is Fun!

Seronok rupanya camwhoring.

Dah tau, kene la selalu buat ;)

Congrats Syera n Ikram

The companies

Syera n I

Mereka selamat disatukan pada 1 Mei 2o1o. Tak sempat tengok akad, lambat setengah jam. Made new frens from IIUM. Karaoke-d for the first time, eheheheheh. I kinda liked it. Company pun best. All in all, I had an enjoyable weekend this time. Syukur alhamdulillah ;)

Sembang-sembang

Aku: nak25hours per day.

Gee:Nak infinity money :X

Aku:God i want that too. Gila lah kita, tak bersyukur ;P

Gee: XD

Paramore-The Only Exception

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I’m
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t
Let go of what’s in front of me here
I know you’re leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream

Ohh—

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I’m on my way to believing
Oh, And I’m on my way to believing

According To You-Orianthi

According to you,
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

According to you
I'm difficult,
Hard to please,
Forever changing my mind.

I'm a mess in a dress,
Can't show up on time,
Even if it would save my life,
According to you... According to you.

c/o
But according to him,
I'm beautiful,
Incredible,
He can't get me out of his head.
According to him,
I'm funny,
Irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
So baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you.

According to you,
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
And you can't take me any place.

According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
You're the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

c/o

Need to feel appreciated,
Like I'm not hated. oh-- no--.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me dizzy.

According to me
You're stupid,
You're useless,
You can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
Incredible,
He can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
Irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
Baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you.
According to you.

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

Jennifer Lopez-Talk About Us

What do we stand to lose

If being together

Is what we choose

Oh my love

I think that we should talk

About us

..................

I Wish!

Tetiba terminat lagu ni masa carikkan lagu untuk Syera's wedding.

Istikharah? Maybe that's the only way.

Ko Ni Kenapa?

"Lenkali lintas cepat2. Sy igt tak sempat nak brek dah."

No reply. Aku dah pkir macam2, rasa nak mencarut pun ada. Nak kata salah orang ke tak? Nak minta maap ke tak? Tak tenang sepanjang perjalanan aku ke Temerloh.

Okay, fine. Are you that sensitive, little remarks like that pun dah mencalarkan hati kau?
I AM SORRY >.<

Dah tak balas2 sampai malam, buat aku teringat2 macam gila, tetiba mesej cute plak masuk.

MALAS AKU NAK LAYAN BANGKAI. Kalo nak kira kecik ati ngan nko, agaknya aku dah takde hati dah kot.

Tapi kenapa hati meronta-ronta dong? Ahh... pening dehh~

Kuantan-isme

The kids ;P

Just got back from Kuantan. Memula ingat tak dapat pegi coz my colleague baru kematian nenda, so i thought she cudnt do her oncall. Luckily she said she can do it so off i went! Tak kisah pun kalo kene ganti, tak de la mendesak sangat.
Anywhoo, Jumaat tu i reached Kuantan around 7-ish . Ayah Jib pun ada kat sana. Lepas Maghrib pegi makan kat Jalan Darat Makbar, kedai makan nama H.Lidah yang jokingly Cik Z panggil Hajah Lidah hihihihi :P Tapi tak sure kenapa Hajah instead of Haji >.<
Lepas makan, hantar Ayah Jib balik Pekan. So, seronok la sebab dapat jalan2 pegi Pekan. Balik semula ke Kuantan around 11 camtu.
Next day, aku keluar jumpa Syera kat rumah dia untuk hang out. Pegi brunch kat Kemaman Kopitiam n later lunch with Alin & Amir at ECM. Memula patutnya ada Ana tapi at the last minute dia bailed out sebab ada hal. Lagipun, dia dah tau dia punya rahsia dah terbongkar! Dia ada datang jap jumpa kitorang kat Johnny's tapi cepat-cepat dia keluar. Tak guna punya budak. Siap laa nanti ;P
Lepak2, jalan2 sampai kul 6. Parted ways ngan Syera, balik rumah Cik Su. Malam makan kat TajPoint IM8.
Arini, lepak je kat rumah sampai noon. Lunch kat Nasi Ayam Noor, Balok pastu around 3-ish aku balik ke Jengka. Before balik singgah KP beli tudung, brooch ngan DVD. Reached Jengka at 6.30pm. Alhamdulillah, semenya selamat. Walaupun tak beronggeng sangat tapi at least aku rasa entertained jugak. Hilang la sikit serabut kepala ;P

Spek

Ku kenal mamat ni, Spek (bukan nama sebenar) masa houseman kat HTAA. Actually aku dah kenal mamat ni before this sebab Syera pena minat kat dia. At first aku tak bagi phone number aku kat dia masa dia mula2 mintak. Aku suruh dia bagik 10 reasons kenapa aku patut bagi kat dia.
Lepas satu minggu, terserempak pulak dengan dia kat ACC. Dia pun macam paksa2 bagi so aku pun bagi la (miang jugak aku ni). Dia dan2 tu jugak ajak aku kuar tapi aku tak dapat pegi sebab ada hal lain.
Anyway kitorang pun jadik baik lepas tu. Aku suka jugak kawan dengan dia sebab dia kelakar n sempoi. Keluar pun ada la dalam 4,5 kali, whether alone ataupun dengan kawan2 aku. Banyak yang aku tau pasal dia and likewise :)
However, lepas beberapa bulan, aku noticed banyak yang tak kena dengan mamat ni.

1. Cerita dia tak konsisten. Yang ni kawan aku yang noticed. Ada banyak mende yang dia cerita, macam tak masuk akal.
2. Dia sangat possessive. Tengah2 kerja pun nak sms, kol segala. Tensen nak melayan wehh.
3. Kami tak pernah keluar makan kat tempat yang open, selalu kat tempat yang low profile ataupun jauh dari bandar. Kata dia, dia malu kalo terserempak dengan orang HTAA. Malu pasal aku ni pegawai, dia tak.
4. Dia tak serius masa keje, selalu mengulo, pastu selalu MC/EL. WTF? Macam ni aku nak jadikan somi?

Lepas pindah Jengka, aku macam dah tak layan dia sangat. Trying to distance myself kononnya. Last sekali dia kol aku masa aku OTW pegi Taiping kenduri Alin (pergh ingat lagi). Aku rejected his call and sms dia kata aku dengan BF masa tu. Memang kejam gila. Pastu aku dah tak kol/sms dia. Nak2 pulak lepas telefon hilang. Memang dah takde pape kontek la.
Kenapa aku teringat kat dia? Sebab tadi my colleague bercerita about her first love, about her being dumped by her BF. Dia beringat dengan pesan mak dia yang aku ingat.

" Biar orang buat kat kita. Jangan buat kat orang."

Seriously aku terus teringat kat dia. Nak mintak maap dari ujung rambut ke ujung kaki. Sori ar babe. I shud've been honest with you.

Busy Bee

Selalu busy jek. Tak pena relax pum. Tapi itu adalah over-statement diriku yang sering kelam-kabut dan berpikir yang bukan-bukan.
Anyway, am booked for many weekends to come. Let me share with you plans for next weekend, insyaallah jadi :)

April 10th-Bachelorette party Syera in Kuantan. Me, Syera, Alin and Ana. Not so much of a party (i know), just us hanging out sebab lama gila tak lepak sama2. Maybe pegi tengok wayang, main boling and one karaoke session. Too bad Liya can't go, her husband is coming back from KL that weekend. Miss you guys so much~

April 17th-Pulau Chekas, Raub here we come! To date, aku, Wadiah ngan K.Fiza yang confirmed nak pegi. Tengah carik orang lagi bagi penuh kereta :P

April 24th-Methadone calls. Suck.

May 1st-Walimah Syera! Mari makan ulam sirih untuk cepat dapat jodoh huhuhuhu~~~

May 8th-Kalo tiada aral melintang, insyaallah aku dah ada kat Pulau Kapas masa nie. Camping trip with HJ staffs. Can't wait :)

May 12th till 15th-Kitak ada di Kuching wit Gee 1, Gee 2 and her anonymous friend. Dunno wat to expect, hope everything goes smoothly :)

There you go. My plans for the next six weekends. Lama lagi laa nak balik Serdang. Jangan laa orang Serdang lupakan daku -______-

Dateline Semakin Hampir -____-

Mari kita bincangkan Pros and Cons tentang seseorang yang boleh dikatakan diingati setiap hari, sejak setahun yang lalu. Perasaan aku terhadap dia adalah bercampur-baur antara suka, sayang, benci, dan menyampah.

Pros

1. Dia approached aku dulu. Out of nowhere, tak nampak pun any signal or anything. Till now, aku pun tak sure dia dapat nombor aku dari siapa.
2. His cute sms-es I woke up to for several morning.
   
3. Pernah rasa dia ni 'magic' sebab there was one time aku tengah type sms untuk dia, tetiba dia sms. Terus rasa cloud nine, tapi sekejap je lah.
   

Cons

1. DIA PEROKOK TEGAR (ni ada orang bagitau).
   
2. Dia pernah lupa aku ni orang mana. Siut tul.
3. DIA TAK PERNAH AJAK AKU KELUAR LAGI.

I think he is playing me. And I am being played. Sedihnya. Dulu dah pernah kena tapi masih tak beringat. Huhuhu ;(
Masih belum sedar ke Ina? Please forget him dowh. Kang tetiba dia sms, terkinja-kinja pulak. Have some pride ar missy \0.0/
Forgive me for being hopelessly romantic, no?

Celine Dion-If You Asked Me To

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

[chorus]

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

[chorus]

Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby

If you asked me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to...

Tell The Truth and Nothing But The Truth

Truth hurts.

But life must go on.

Earth Hour 2010

Earth Hour-Malaysia

27 March 2010, 8.30-9.30 pm

To those who cares, let's do this :)

Especialmente para você ^.^

#11 sms

"Dua Tiga, Cat Running2,
Penatnya Kejar, My Head
Pun Pening2, My Wish 2
u is Hello and Good
Evening, taPi DaH
TerLambat, So Good NiTe
N SlamAt BersleepiNG..."

erm. torn between advices. to proceed or to abort?

Sarang In Gayo

Pic was taken during outing with my parents. Sangat cute :)
Using this pic for my hp's wallpaper~

Get To Know Yourself Better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

(originally from here)

Emo.Emo.Emo.

am currently watching this. Been conquering TV since Friday. Going for 16th episode tonite. Abes la air mata aku malam nie :P

Apa Aku Dah Buat Nie?

Gambar seminggu yang lalu. Pergi kenduri Aishah kat Kg. Pandan, Kuantan. Lepas tu pegi ECM tengok Alice in Wonderland 3D. Ok laa kot.

^.^ ولا سيما بالنسبة لك

#10 sms

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>>>-Love->
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>>>-Peace->
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>>>-Happiness->

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>>>-Health->
May this blessings of
Allah reach u
everyday!
Gudnite~

Lalo Na Para Sa Iyo ^.^

#9 sms

"A true friend scolds like a dad,
cares like a mom,
teach like a sister,
irritates like a brother,
& finally loves u
more than ur lover...
That's FRIENDSHIP"

adoyai~

Spesiaal Vir Jou ^.^

#8 sms

'Sahabat sejati...
Seorg yg slalu hdir msa
kta sedih dan ksepian. Slalu
bsama saat duka dn
lara..Mmahami dn blh
mghiburkn.Xpndg kya
atau mskin.Ssorg y mbntu
kta bgun tatkala kta
jtuh.Sma2 mntiskn airmta
bhgia msa kta snang.Jd
tman y mhbur msa kta
xpnya ssiapa u bsndar...'

Climie Fisher-Love Changes Everything

I was only seventeen when she looked at me that way
Seems like yesterday
I was only fooling round but she stole my heart away
I've never been the same

I felt the strangest feeling like a raging fire it burned
She left I cried for weeks and
I can't forget her or the lesson that I learned

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

Then the years went rolling by
I grew up and moved away
Had to earn my pay
Found another lover then
But my heart is sad to say
It only ended up the same way

And I wondered was I destined to spend my life alone
Oh girl you answered my question
This time it's working you've given me new hope

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

I've seen the way love shakes ya makes ya break ya
It's got a power of its own

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

*i heart the 80's*

당신은 특히 ^.^

#7 sms

"AwaK
AkAn
rAsE
gEmBiRe
BiLE
AwaK
tAU
aDe OrG
Syg
AwaK

aDe OrG
RiNdU
AwaK

Ade oRg
Suke
AwaK

tP
rAse LeBiH
GmBiRe biLe
Tau
aDe OrG
x pErnAh
LuPeKan
aWak.."

NeYo-Never Knew I Needed

ooh..
for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
(oh yeah)

for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you’re something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don’t wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

c/o
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after)
(oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you’re the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always

who’d knew that i’d be here (who’d knew that i’d be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl you’re the..
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you’re the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it’s so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it’s so clear i need you here always

Surtout Pour Vous ^.^

#5 sms

"Apa itu KAWAN?

K=kehadirannya menceriakan
A=antaranya tiada kecurigaan
W=walaupun jauh dekat di hati
A=ambil berat
N=namanya sentiasa diingati (?_?)
Gudnite"

#6 sms

.:i!i!i:..:i!i!i:.
(i!i sweet !i!)
'+dreams+'
"+;,:+"
i
give you
my heart..
for u
to use as a
pillow..
hope that u can feel
comfortable
Good Nite...


adoiii~~~

Especially Por Tu ^.^

sambung lagi..

#3 sms
-> a cute one.

()". . "()
( ,o )
(_3€_)
Dah tidur ke?
()""..()
("'( ,o)
( €_)
Cuba tengok sikit...
()". ."()
( ("') )
(_/(_) Laa.. dah meleleh
air liur.. GD NITE :)

#4 sms
-> melalut yang menyenangkan :)

"Jika pulau e2 indah, indah lg
sbuah pertemuan, jke gnong
e2 tggi, tgi lgi penghargan
pde sbuah pshabatan, jke
laut e2 luas e2 lah jrak yg
memisahkan,dn ble hujan
trun smua flora dan fauna
kn sgar, bgitu lah sgar nye
igatan ku pde mu...Slmt
Malam"

adoii~~~

Especially For You ^.^

I do not really know what will happen or how it may ends, but if look back at these sms-es will definitely make me feel it is all worthwhile.

#1 SMS
->received during the makan-makan at our house on April '09. i thought it was from somebody else. at this time i was 'confused' with someone else. that fucking creep :P

()""() ()""()
( ." o o", )
i just wanna give a big
SMILE
()""()""()
('O')('O')...for a person i
dont get to see everyday
but i CARE always..Gudnite

#2 sms
M'cri sOrg TEMAN bagaikn
m'cri sebiji benih pOkOk dlm
semak b'duri..b'sedialh utk
dilukai,jgn m'nglh utk trus
m'cri..andai sudh kau temui
sygilh ia spnuh hati..slamt mlm

ada lagii~~
adoi la. macam2 owh. but waking up to this sms will absolutely make ur day! for me it is :P
^.^

A Wise Woman

Ladies,
As I continue to age, I value older women most of all.
Here are just a few reasons why ...

Older woman will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think.

If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And it's usually something more interesting.

An older woman knows herself well enough to be assured in who she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few older women give a damn what you might think about her or what she's doing.

Older women are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it.

An older woman usually has had her fill of "meaningful relationships" and "commitment." The last thing she wants in her life is another dopey, clingy, whiny, dependent lover.

Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated.

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to an older woman. They already know.

An older woman has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends. A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women. Older women couldn't care less.

An older woman looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not true of younger women or drag queens. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, an older woman is far sexier than her younger counterpart.

Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off you are a jerk if you are acting like one.

You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her ... Yes, we praise older women for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not always reciprocal.

For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed, hot woman of 40+ ... there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year-old waitress.

Ladies, I apologize for all of us.

(originally posted here)

LoSiNg

=Someone i know lost her baby a few weeks ago. I was told she was very devastated and couldn't stop crying over her loss. I met her before she miscarried so it came as a shock to hear about her unfortunate loss.

loss
The condition of being deprived or bereaved of something or someone
(thefreedictionary.com)

I hope she will be okay. Insyaallah.

fabulous duet!

Beyonce Ft Lady Gaga-Video Phone
Shawty, what yo name is?

Them hustlers keep on talkin'
They like the way I'm walkin'
You saying that you want me
So press record, I'll let you film me

On your video phone, make a cameo
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

I love how you approach me
Fresh white with your pants hangin' grown man low
Everything you sayin' soundin' good to me
No need to convince me anymore

Swag up, it's right, one blade, it's tight
And I smell your cologne in the air
Baby you doin' somethin' right
You just cancelled every other man here

You say you like my bag and the color of my nails
You can see that I got it goin' on
I wanna make sure you remember me
So I'ma leave my number on your video phone

I got no time for frontin'
I know just what I'm wantin'
If it's gonna be you and me
When I call, they better see me on your video screen

Them hustlers keep on talkin'
They like the way I'm walkin'
You saying that you want me
So press record, I'll let you film me

On your video phone, make a cameo
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

You my phone star
And I'm happy when my lights flashin'
'Cause you on my receiver
Hubba, hubba
Honey, baby is so sexy that he should win an Oscar

And when you miss me, just remember that I always got you with me
I'll be your Gene, you'll be my Brando
I'ma put you in my movie if you think that you can handle (Can you handle it?)

I know you like that (Can you handle it?)
Turn you into a star, I got it like that (Can you handle it?)
Baby don't fight it, (Tell 'em, B), 'cause when I miss yo call (Can you handle it?)
I hit you right back on my video phone (You like what you see?)

Them hustlas like my fashion (You wanna video me?)
They like the way I'm walkin' (You like what you see?)
You sayin' that you want me (Go on and video me)
So press record, I'll let you film me

On your video phone, make a cameo
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

Can you handle it?
Can you handle it? (Tell 'em, B)
Can you handle it?
Can you handle it?

You like what you see? (Can you handle it?)
You wanna video me? (Can you handle it?)
You like what you see? (Can you handle it?)
Go on and video me (Can you handle it?)
You like what you see? (Can you handle it?)
You wanna video me?

You know them Gs, they be hollerin', 'specially them hot ones
Brooklyn, Atlanta, Houston, to New Orleans
When they see me, they be like "Yo B, let me call you"
You breakin' my focus, boy, you cute and you ballin'

You like it when I shake it?
Shawty on a mission, what yo name is?
What, you want me naked?
If you likin' this position you can tape it on your video phone

Hustla keep on talkin'
You like the way it's poppin'
You sayin' that you want me
Press record and baby, film me

On your video phone, make a cameo (Film me)
Tape me on your video phone, I can handle you (Film me)
Watch me on your video phone, on your video, video (Film Me)
If you want me you can watch me on your video phone

Uh, uh, uh, ah, uh
Uh, uh, uh, ah, uh
(If you want me you can watch me on your) Video phone

Oh,brother! 2

Januari 2010

"Amri, along nak cakap jap." Aku panggil dia. Dia yang baru lepas mandi, datang ke arahku.

"Amri buat apa keluar malam-malam, even hari sekolah pun?" Dia diam. Aku tanya lagi, "Pergi mana?"

"Amri pergi rumah kawan je. Main gitar, sembang2. Tu je." Muka dia dah keruh.

"Tau tak tahun ni Amri nak PMR? Membazir masa tau. Masa yang Amri keluar malam-malam ni patutnya boleh untuk buat homework, revision.Sekejap je nak bulan 10 Amri. Sekejap je Amri tak kuar malam ni. Lepas PMR ni nak kuar dari rumah tak balik-balik pun takpe." Muka dia lagii keruh.

"Amri tau. Tapi bulan ni je. Next month Amri dah tak keluar dah." Muka penuh harapan, muka adikku yang masih kecil dan mentah mengeluarkan janji. Ah, aku cair!

"Okay. Tapi Amri ingat Amri buat semua untuk Amri jugak. Bukan untuk Emak, Abah, Along ngan yang lain-lain." Dia angguk.

Hari ini adalah 5 Februari 2010, pukul 9.14 malam, dia takde kat rumah. God, he must really hate me. Headache :(

Oh, brother!

Yea i'm down with conjunctivitis. Sakit mata la wehh. Dapat MC 3 hari. First day aku keje gak half day sebab ada meeting CPD, 2nd day aku bermalas-malasan kat rumah sambil melakukan kerja2 rumah dan today, the 3rd day, aku dah bosan gila. Dah hampir 48jam++ aku tak cecah kaki kat luar huhuhu. Tapi aku rasa my eyes are not getting any better. Might as well carik MO jap g eheh. Ntah2 dapat MC lagik :P

Anyhoo...

Mak ada kol semalam. Die ngan Abah pergi sekolah Kidu. Duduk sekali berbincang dengan cikgu kaunselor kat bilik kaunseling. Ada la sesi peluahan perasaan. Kidu dah tak tahan sekolah kat SI sebab kawan2 pulaukan dia. On what account, we still haven't got a clue. He admitted he was 'mentally bullied' with all the silent treatment or cynical remarks from his classmates. Dia ada mengaku dengan emak yang dia dibuli di sekolah, tapi mak pujuk untuk teruskan sekolah sampai abes Form 3. He okayed it. Tau2 dia dah ponteng sekolah 3 days in a row, lepak kat CC.
Cikgu dia bagi a week untuk fikirkan pasal hal tukar sekolah. Aku pun tak tau macam mana dia jadik such a quitter like this. And i was also sad because he never mentioned any of this before. Yang aku tau die kerap hang out dengan kawan2 dia yang aku nampak sebagai bad influence to him especially this one particular boy, F yang memang aku ngan Ika tak approve of.
He should know better to focus in school instead of wasting his time on 'friends'. He should know better in the future none of this so-called 'friends' wud last. Mak abah bersusah payah carik duit for his education, especially mak yang dah buat savings for his college so that dia takyah amek PTPTN nanti.
I just hope he will realise this sebab nothing in this world comes in handy. He has to learn that he is doing it only for himself coz Allah won't change one's fate unless he works for it.

Worrying for my little brother might give me ulcer one day ;(

Stress suck!

++Okay, i am under a lot of stress lately. What's with the problem at work, personal, dengan adik yang tidak mendengar kata, membuatkan aku susah nak lena tidur dan ended up snoozed my alarm for several times every morning. Someone said i looked pucat today. She asked me what was wrong. I told her i was fine, tapi aku tau aku tak OK. I need to sort out me problems, hopefully relieving some of this burden away.
++A good friend of mine once advised me not to put too much hope on people. People has a way somehow to do wat they thot they shud do without ever knowing or considering how it may affect other people. She has gone too many to know, once you put your hopes to high, people can surprise you in a way you never know how. Time and time again, i tried not to, but time and time again i failed. When will i learn?

Tetiba teringat, Mika dalam Lollipop kata,

Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking to hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down.
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down

Somehow it all seems ironic. Rasa cam nak carik any funny movie dan ketawa sampai menangis.

There's Always the First Time

Photoscape-d. Kinda like it.

Aku benci daku begini...

Ungu – Dilema Cinta

Seberapa salahkah diriku

Hingga kau sakiti aku begitu menusukku

Inikah caramu membalas

Aku yang selalu ada saat kau terluka

Seberapa hinanya diriku

Hingga kau ludahi semua yang ku beri untukmu

Tak ada satu pun perasaan yang mampu membuatku begitu terluka

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu

Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu

Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu

Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

Telah ku coba segala cara

‘Tuk bahagiakan kamu

Merebut hatimu

Namun tak semudah yang ku bayangkan

Bila kau tak inginkan ku ’tuk di sisimu

Tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya

Menginginkan dirinya hingga ku tak kuasa

Meyakini hatiku bahwa ku mampu berlalu

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu

Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu

Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu

Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu

Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu

Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu

Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

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Lyrics

Macam best!

takde keje.

welcome home iman!

Selsema la. Lepaih makan Benadryl (the only antihistamine kat rumah) nih rasa mengantuk lak. Semalam pegi melawat baby baru AyahNi kat TPT, Puchong. Ishh lama gila takda sepupu baru. Last sekali masa E-da lahir which was 7 years ago. Siap dah sekolah pun minah tuh.
Anyway, according to AyahNi, baby iman nih sangatlah secretive. Nak tengok gender dia semasa scan adalah tak dapat. Hihihi. Only after dia lahir baru dapat tahu. Family AyahNi dah la eager nak tau sebab dia ada 3 boys dan sangatlah mengharapkan dapat baby girl. Alhamdulillah. Besarnya kurniaan Allah.
So dear Iman Athirah Darwisyah, thank you for making us realize that Allah is great :)
P/s;this pic is also my phone's wallpaper xD

Mila-Jika Kau Ubah Fikiran

Diriku sedar siapalah ku di matamu
Hanya sebutir pasir di pantai kau berlabuh
Cukup di situ hasrat ku terkubur
Kau juga bilang kau belum bersedia lagi
Untuk mengganti pasangan dalam sanubari
Mungkin kerna masih basah luka lama

Chorus
Jika kau ubah fikiran
Aku kan setia menanti
Jika kau perlukan teman
Carilah di sini
Jika kau ubah fikiran
Untuk jatuh cinta lagi
Yang pertama ke depan
Jika kau ubah fikiran

Akan ku serah segalanya oh kepadamu
Senang atau susah aku tabah 'tuk menempuh
Tapi sayang hatimu belum terbuka

Ulang Chorus

Aku mahukan kamu
Sungguh benar dan jujur
Aku mahukan kamu
Sungguh benar dan jujur
Tapi sayang hatimu belum terbuka

Ulang Chorus

Aku kan setia menanti
Jika kau perlukan teman
Carilah disini
Jika kau ubah fikiran
Untuk jatuh cinta lagi
Yang pertama ke depan
Jika kau ubah fikiran

*lagu yang sweet :)*

1st posting for 2010

Dah berjanji kepada diri sendiri untuk blog at least once in 10 days. So here goes to my first posting for 2010.

I want to write about this 3 person I bumped into yesterday that made my feelings 'bercampur baur'. I did methadone dispensing yesterday. Memang la bila dipikir-pikirkan balik, i guess that is how life is. You can't avoid people in your life kan ;P. However, Nama sebenar adalah dirahsiakan.

1. MN. Dia adalah jejaka kacak yang kadang2 aku jumpa. Cara dia datang semalam adalah sangat surprising. Aku igtkan sapa yang terjenguk-jenguk kat luar bilik methadone. Rupanya dia, datang nak anta barang dari Kuantan. Looking good babe :) Seronoknya mencucik mata dengan awak~

2. MTMN. Dia adalah seorang patient methadone yang sangat minimal communication-nya. Tapi cam sial bila berkata-kata. Siap bawak kuar duit tunjuk kat aku bila aku tanya mana take away bottle (TAB) yang sepatutnya dia bawak aritu. Dan aku sumpah aku tak tuduh dia jual methadone. Dia pun punya lah bangang, bawak TAB orang lain punya. NAMPAK SANGAT LA BANGKAI! Bodoh punya orang macam ni pun ada la. Aku sgt lah marah sampai tangan aku menggigil-gigil. I was this close to calling the guards tapi bila dipikir-pikirkan tak payahlah. I let him go but i am thinking to do an official complaint to the FMS. Siap aku sumpah mamat ni accident lagik sampai mampus! (Dia adalah tempang dari previous MVA).

3. SAJ. Bercakap pasal dia adalah sesuai untuk posting lain hihihi :). Oh god aku tak prepare untuk berjumpa dengan dia semalam. Aku ada cara untuk mengelakkan berjumpa dengan dia sebab ....(aku adalah pemalu). Whenever i see his CCG4578 parked at the hospital compound, that is when i will try my very best to avoid his department. Tapi lain pulak jadinya semalam. Dan aku dah ushar baiik punya kat tempat parking takde kereta dia. So aku dengan riang gembiranya pergi lah ke dept dia. Selepas pertembungan dengan MTMN tuh, kiranya aku nak jalan2 la sekejap pergi sana. Bila aku bukak pintu jer, MASYOLOH ADA PULAK DIA ARINI!! Dalam hati aku cam berdebar-debar jap. Nak patah balik dah lambat, apa aku nak buat nih?? Tapi aku teruskan langkah aku jugak walaupun dah berat. Dia pulak cam expression-less jek bila nampak aku. Tengah busy kot. Kenapa laaa aku tak tengok cermin dulu sebelum pergi tempat dia?? Why oh why i am not that vain?? Pergh malu siut :)

Anyway, tu sajalah nak cerita. See you in 10 days, tops.