2010 New Year

haih. cepat betul masa berlalu. macam orang kata, time just flew by. kata Bunkface, in the blink of an eye, it's just another day~. dat is how i feel today. tomorrow will be the first day of 2010. semua orang cam excited gila welcoming 2010 (ie, status Facebook) but aku rasa sama je. mungkin sebab besok dan 2 hari seterusnya aku kena keje so tak rasa excited langsung nak sambut new year. anyway, as i was reminiscing the good memories and throwing the bad ones of '09, the whole thing got me thinking.
what have i done/achieved/get for the past 2009?

Maal Hijrah 1431H

Di sini sy berkongsi sedikit, iaitu doa untuk kita baca pada akhir tahun dan awal tahun.

Doa Akhir Tahun.

Doa ini dibaca antara selepas solat asar dan sebelum waktu maghrib. Doa ini dibaca se eolok-eloknya 3kali.

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.
Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia.

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.


Doa Awal Tahun

Doa ini pula dibaca selepas waktu maghrib. Doa ini juga dibaca se elok-eloknya 3kali.

Maksudnya:

Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.
Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu.

Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

Tag Yourself

(1) Turn on your Mp3 player (or iTunes or whatever).
(2) Go to SHUFFLE songs mode.
(3) Write down the first 10 songs that come up--song title and artist--NO editing/cheating, please.
(4) Choose 25 or so people to be tagged. Don't forget to tag me, too.

1. Too Much-Spice Girls
=> one of my favourite SG song.

2. Shorty Like Mine-Bow Wow feat. Chris Brown
=> meme suke kat budak kenit nih

3. Hurt-Christina Aguilera
=> boring tapi kengkadang suka (BTKS)

4. Can't Help Falling In Love-UB40
=> only fools rush in ;P

5. Sembunyi-Misha Omar & Andy FP
=> BTKS

6. Menjaga Hati-Yuvie dan Nuno
=> suka banget~

7. Bertakhta di Hati-Farah Dhiya
=> layan saja

8. Diari Seorang Lelaki-Pretty Ugly
=> lagu sempoi

9. Smile-Lily Allen
=> breakup song (i wish!)

10. All My Life-KCi and Jojo
=> all time favourite

and i'm tagging everyone who happen to read this and happen to own an mp3 player/ipod

Teach Me How to be Selfish

Ayat arrogant yang asyik bermain-main di fikiran lately. Aku terperangkap dalam dilema samada untuk meneruskan kehidupan yang asyik mementingkan orang lain, sensitive to other people's needs and memeningkan kepala untuk persoalan orang lain. Sejak kebelakangan ini aku asyik sibuk laa dengan hal-hal orang lain yang mana membuatkan aku terlupa/terleka dengan hal-hal aku sendiri (or am i in denial?). Be it at home, at work, aku mesti sibuk/risau dengan hal2 orang lain. Padahal aku still ada countless persoalan/masalah/halangan yang aku perlu fikirkan/sort out-kan dari kepala aku yang berserabut ini. Atau sebenarnya aku yang terlebih risau? Tolonglah, aku tak nak didiagnose sebagai clinically depressed. Nak2 oleh Dr. Zafri. No thanks.

=====Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha=====

Pesanan kepada diri sendiri (dan juga kepada semua yang sedang membaca):

=> jangan OD-ed yourself with all the lemangs, rendangs and also ketupats.

and also....

today is the screening of the final episode of NURKASIH!!



malam ni, Jumaat 27 Nov 2009, pukul 9mlm di TV3 y'all~

Ne Me Quitte Pas-Nina Simone

*lagu sedih yang memang meruntun jiwa kalo didengar semasa memandu dalam keadaan hujan. bak kata Azrin, dapat menyelami hati paling dalam. hakk ptuihh*



automatic blues kalo dengar lagu ni sensorang.

Kamu di mana, bahagia?

Semua orang mencari bahagia. Takde sapa yang tak nak bahagia. I, for one, have been searching for that true meaning of bahagia. All my life. But to say I'm not bahagia all this while would sound understatement. Ridiculous, even.
I've been bahagia. Aku masih mempunyai ibu bapa, adik-beradik, kawan-kawan dan kenalan. Aku tiada kecacatan fizikal yang memungkinkan aku untuk disisihkan watsoever, and God forbid la in the future i will.
Aku bet kalo ditanya kepada orang2 lain, there are so many ways to be happy. Ada orang kata kalo duit banyak, dia akan bahagia. Ada orang kata pulak kalo ada teman, partner, jodoh, dia akan bahagia. Dan ada jugak kata kalo cantik, tampan, handsome barulah bahagia. Bahagia tang mana tak tau la kalo orang shallow macam tuh.

Leona Lewis-Happy
Verse 1:
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days i feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

Bridge:
So and it's just that i can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

A Millie-Lil Wayne

Song Lyrics

lagu yang suka aku pasang kuat2 dalam kete masa driving sensorang

Bengkel ADR Zon Timur

Bertempat di Hotel Grand Continental, KT, telah berlangsung Bengkel ADR & AEFI Zon Timur pada 26-28 Oktober lepas. Aku dipilih untuk mewakili Pahang dengan several other pharmacist dari seluruh daerah. ADR means adverse drug reactions iaitu kesan mudarat ubat. Ala macam kesan sampingan jugak cuma ADR ni unpredictable and selalunya more hazardous dari kesan sampingan. AEFI plak adverse events following immnization iaitu kesan mudarat setelah imunisasi diberikan.
I had a great time there. Why? Sebab aku jumpa semula kawan2 lama masa UKM like Afiq, Azma n Fadli. Macam2 la yang kami borakkan/sembangkan and update about ourselves. Fadhli dah ada anak, Afiq is expecting and Azma is getting married next month. Moi? Malu nak update on status so terpaksa divert topic kalo derang dah start2 tanya. Ehehe.
Sempat gak jalan2 kat KT cam pergi Masjid Kristal, Kg. Losong (famous for its keropok lekor), Pasar Payang ngan Pantai Batu Burok. Tapi takde duit nak beli kain2 batik yang cantik2 belaka :( Takpe lenkali bleh pergi shopping plak.
Lepas balik dari bengkel ni, haruslah buat CME. Ala malasnyaaa!!!

Selamat Pengantin Baru Liya & Abang J

ahaha. title cam gile. liya telah pun selamat melangsungkan perkahwinan dengan pilihan hatinya, abang J pada 31 Oktober yang lepas. tak sempat nak tengok dia nikah sebab lambat sampai. anyway sangat2 gembira untuk liya n doa aku semoga perkahwinan mereka kekal ke akhir hayat.

It Could've Been Me

K.I.D.U.

Aku ingat lagi masa mak nak melahirkan Amri. Tak ingat hari apa tapi aku tau aritu aku balik dari pasar malam. Oh masa tu malam. Aku balik dari pasar malam dengan Angah. Sampai jek rumah, tengok mak dgn abah dah bersiap-siap nak pergi hospital. Aku, ika ngan Angah kene tinggal kat rumah. Lepas jek mak ngan abah pergi, kitorang panjat pagar pergi rumah jiran sebelah. Tak pasti apa motif kitorang nak pergi rumah sebelah tapi mungkin sebab aku yang ajak kot.
Anyway dalam pukul 10 macam tu abah pun balik. Kitorang bertiga pun balik la ke rumah. Abah pun cite mak dah lahirkan Amri. Masa tu kitorang cam happy la sebab nak dapat baby baru kat rumah. Ika pun sibuk2 tanya bila baby tu nak balik. Abah pun tucked us in to sleep dengan cite2 pasal baby baru tu.

If You Only Knew

pabila kau merenung matanya,
ku rebah... jatuh ke bumi,
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi,
seperti ku bernafas dalam air...

Dan Sebenarnya-Yuna

*in the mood of running away*

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil*itri

masih belum terlewatkan?

1Malaysia

Teringat masa sekolah menengah dulu. Cikgu Superam (English teacher) tanya kat tiap2 student, 'who are you?'
Most of us answered, Melayu, Cina, India. Ada sorang je yang cakap, "Malaysian."

Orang yang cakap Malaysian tu went to US to study dan tak balik2. Kerja kat sana, kawen dengan orang sana. Aku takde apa2 hal dengan dia cuma bila teringat balik masa sekolah dulu, terasa sgt ironi dengan situasi dia sekarang.

Ironik ke tak tu?

CrushCrushCrush

Topik cilok dari Suria.
Masa sekolah menengah aku memang ada minat kat banyak-banyak orang tapi the biggest crush i had on somebody was when i was in F3. Dia adalah seorang senior F5, kelas 5 Akaun 2, nama dia Saiful Azhari bin Hasan aka Qatar. (Tu adalah nickname dia di kalangan kengkawan aku).

Crush:
Saiful Azhari bin Hasan.

Masa kejadian:
aku F3 dan dia F5.

Start to know him:
Masa aktif (wtf? aku tak aktif pun) PBSM sekolah.

Perilaku-perilaku gersang tak ingat:
#1:Kat sekolah kalau kelas agama mesti kene campur 2 kelas. Kalo time kelas agama dia akan datang kat kelas 5 Akaun 1 which was the opposite of my class. Memang heaven la aku masa tuh sebab aku duduk tepi tingkap. Sampai dah bleh hafal schedule kelas agama dia. Aku pernah kene tegur dengan cikgu BM sebab tak concentrate dalam kelas sebab asyik pandang luar jek. Nasib baik tak fail BM.

#2:Aku ada diari yang full of my luahanperasaanperasan terhadap dia. Kalo la dapat kat adik2 aku mesti kene gelak menganjing gila. Dah la jiwang tahap dewa, pastu siap ngan poems, lirik2 lagu ngan daily updates of segala yang berlaku berkenaan dengan dia. Dia datang sekolah dengan motor so agak cool la. Pastu aku akan terasa hati plak (wth?) kalo nampak dia bercakap dengan other girls kat sekolah. So penuhlaa entry diari aku hari tu.

#3:Dekda my bestfren back in school pernah bagi phone number aku kat dia. Dan dia called during my birthday!! Memang aku elated dan high masa dia called. Aku bahasakan diri 'aku-kau' je ngan dia. Lepas tu kalo jumpa je kat sekolah aku akan buat tak kenal sebab aku MALUUU sangat nak bertentang mata ngan dia. Peh memang aku fell head over heels la ngan mamat nih. *Guling2 bila teringat balik*

#4: Aku pernah menangis pasal dia sebab aku dengar dia sakit. Turned out to be NOT TRUE! Serius membazir my tears ahahaha.

Seriously aku tak pernah ada perasaan begini kuat terhadap seseorang sebelum dan selepas mamat ni. Lepas jer dia abes SPM dia still ada kol tapi cam sekejap2 pastu dah takde. Maybe dat time i was naive so i poured all of my heart and soul (ewah) to this guy. But back then aku takde pun nak kapel ke hape ngan mamat nih cuma minat dari jauh yang menggunung tinggi. Bila dah kenal ngan dia the thrill pun kurang. Nak2 plak wavelength ngan chemistry takder. Sebab tu la bila dah start kawan ngan dia level of kegersangan pun dah berkurang. Elok benar la tuh. Dreams vs reality.

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down
Just get back up when it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down
Just get back up when it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Keri Hilson-Knock You Down

I wonder when will i feel this strong towards someone else again? *sigh*

Blog-Worthy

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
- it's a bonus!

2. Smart?
- looking and thinking

3. Preferred age?
- someone older

4. Preferred height?
- at least taller than me

5. How about sense of humor?
- it's a must

6. How about piercings?
- NOPE

7. Accepts you for who you are?
- :) absolutely

8. Pink hair?
- NOPE

9. Mushy or no?
- depends on the person

10. Thin or fat?
- i'd prefer us to get fat together eheh

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
- no preference

12. Long hair or short hair?
- short, hopefully

13. Plastic or metal?
- ?

14. Smells good?
- Yes, of course :)

15. Smoker?
- i'd prefer non-smoker but if he is, he should know it's hazardous

16. Drinker?
- if still, no

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
- that's sissies

18. Muscular?
- hope not

19. Plays piano?
- it's a bonus

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
- not necessarily

21. Plays violin?
- not necessarily

22. Sings very good?
- only if he'll sing to me always

23. Vain?
- not too vain lah

24. With glasses?
- same same :P

25. With braces?
- hopefully not

26. Shy type?
- me loike shy guy!

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
- a little bit of both

28. Active or passive?
- active

29. Tight or bomb?
- next!!

30. Singer or dancer?
- nope.

31. stunner?
- :) heartbreaker

32. Hiphop?
- i hope so

33. Earrings?
- nope!

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
- a big NO NO

35. Dimples?
- it's a bonus

36. Bookworm?
- i don't mind :)

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
- letter/sms/email, have it ur way baby!

38. Playful?
- only with me :)

39. Flirt?
- only with me :)

40. Poem writer?
- only if it's all for me :)

41. Serious?
- not all the time

42. Campus crush?
- crushes don't last long

43. Painter?
- not necessarily

44. Religious?
- knows halal and haram

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
- knows the boundary also

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
- he'd better not

47. Speaks 20 languages?
- knows the word 'love' in 20 languages wud be nice ahah

48. Loyal or faithful?
- both

49. good kisser?
- :) pucker it up baby!

50. loves children??
- yup, and wants some of his own.


and i'm tagging this to those people who happen to read this.

N.E.R.D.-Maybe

Love was the egg
See and it was born in a cloud with silver lining
But it broke, I mean it hatched on the ground
So time flew right by me and while I...

[Chorus]
I know you thought your life was goin be easy
When you didn't call you found that you where wrong
I know you thought your life was goin be easy
You thought you had it all but you found that you were wrong

See maybe there was something wrong
And you weren't telling me no
See maybe the laugh's on me
And life was telling me a joke

If something's yours and you let it go
If it comes back to you it was yours all along
When I let you go along with those lies from you
I wonder what else lies in you
Or did the lies just just eat gone

[Chorus]

Hold it now!
Is ya'll there?
How you feel right now?
Yeah me too
Hey yeah!
Hold it now!
Ya'll all right?

See do you remember
what its like to wake up in her love nest
get it love nest and now she's gone
gone gone gone

At which point you realize
Life is but a joke and the laughs on you
That's funny right

Babe

+i heart pharrell+

Laksamana-Gugurnya Bunga Cinta

versi live, circa 90's
+me likey this song very much. one of my fave back then. tetiba teringat kat lagu ni bila Ezo posted the video on Facebook+

iftar with frens

Date: August 30th, 2009.
Venue: Puteri Teja Coffee House, Shahzan Inn, Kuantan.
Geng: Alin, Ana and Baby Zakwan.

went home happy :) tak sia-sia stayed in Jengka instead of balik Serdang.

play it over and over again T__T

Lyrics

I say a little prayer

Kami bertarawih bersama-sama hari itu. Not by my choice, i have to say. If i can redo this event, i will not be there. That was the last place i wanted to be at that very time.
As all of the ma'mum sujud, sayup2 i terdengar suara die ketika sujud. And terlintas dalam hati, i really really want this guy. Within seconds my conscience said; you can't have this guy. Look at you, and look at him and look at her. So with tears, i prayed;
" Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan untuk memaafkan dan melupakan. Hanya kepada-Mu ku berserah "

Nostalgia

It all started when Amy asked me to accompany her to our local param in Serdang. I had a better idea. Instead, i ajak her to iftar with me along with Kimberly. Kim is going back to Ukraine on Sept 3rd and it's like sending her off la. So, Amy and i pun ajak2 la sumore people and ended up ada 7 orang, me, Amy, Kim, Michelle, Gee, An ngan Suria. Among these people, i haven't seen Suria like (??) after school kot, which is like 8,9 years ago. Crazy or wat? Gile reunion ah.
So the event was held at Black Canyon, Alamanda, Putrajaya. Actually aku yang nak-nak sangat makan kat sana since aku suka sangat ngan BC kat Kuantan. Luckily seme pun enjoyed the food and later on we continue the lepak2 at Restoran Azhar Maju beside The Mines. Banyak la citer2 lama terbongkar. Who's doing whatnot. Seriously aku sangat suka dengan adhoc reunion camni. Hussle-free, lantak ko la sapa dapat join and tempat pun last minute je reserve. Memang la the more the merrier, tapi kalo reramai sangat cam pening gak. Jenuh nak layan and nanti mesti ade yang separated.
Rinduu sangat kat zaman sekolah. Rasa cam nak korek balik gambar2 sekolah yang lama dan upload kat sini. Will do it, bila balik Serdang nanti -_-" which is LAMBATTTT lagi woooOOoooOO~~

gile!

nak wat gambar ala2 shutter tapi ada lak tangan sengal kat belakang tuuu~~

Sesaje Mengade...

Upload a picture of you in a position that you hated the most


FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU :
1.along
2.rina
3.ina
4.sarah

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE :
1.27/2
2.14/1
3.12/7
4.21/8 and 3/11

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1.iftar
2.wat nescafe
3.online
4.dengar berita (bukan tengok~~ heeh...)

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY :
1.smile always
2.stay calm and collected
3.stay in touch with family
4.remember Allah always

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST :
1.Ex-bf (hope you're happy)
2.Oze Farameela bt Otoh
3.Saiful Azhari (my biggest crush during f3)
4.frens back in KMPP and UKM

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1.video cam
2.perfumes
3.telekung (i really need a new one!)
4.err can money be considered as gifts?

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES :
1.online
2.listening to my iPod
3.reading magazines
4.watching DVD

FOUR PLACES OR COUNTRY YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION :
1.korea
2.australia
3.bali (again!)
4.islands in Malaysia, starting with Pulau Perhentian

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS :
1.nescafe
2.laici kang
3.sirap bandung
4.iced blended mocha/cappucino from Secret Recipe

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG/HANDBAG :
1.purse
2.cellphone/PDA
3.keys
4.pen

FOUR FAVOURITE COLORS :
1.white
2.black
3.blue
4.pink

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS :
1.dalam pagar
2.home in Jengka/Serdang
3.The Mines
4.maulana flat bosnia

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH :
1.parents
2.siblings
3.close frens
4.future spouse (where r u?)

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU :
1.friendship
2.loyalty
3.having a perfect smooth day
4.people surrounding me

TOP FOUR WHO YOU WILL TAGGED:
1.everyone
2.who
3.read
4.this.

Err...hung up?

Him: Hello Unit ****
Me: Err.. hello ***. Ni ada patient methadone.. eh, saya nak tumpang methadone untuk patient methadone saya ni. Dia datang lambat. Nak letak kat ***
Him: Ada sorang je ke?
Me:..
Him: Ok ok.

letak telefon.

bummer. i am in denial. obviously i still have feelings for him that even my body couldn't deny. the response was the ultimate evidence of all. what should i do?

bummer. shit shit shit. damn.

Anda-Tentang Seseorang

terhentuk di hatiku
inginku bersuara
merangkai semua tanya
imagine yang terindah

berjalan pada satu
ada slalu menggangguku
seseorang itukah
dirimu kasih

kepada yang tercinta
inginnya ku mengeluh
semua resahi diri
mencari jawab pasti

akankah seseorang
yang ku impikan kan hadir
lalu halus menyelimut
di jantungku

c/o cinta hanyalah cinta
hidup dan mati untukmu
mungkinkah semua tanya
kau yang jawab

dan tentang seseorang
itu pula dirimu
ku bersumpah
akan mencinta

*rindu kat kengkawan UKM bile dengar lagu nie especially Syawa. bila lagik nak jumpe derang nih??*

Random Rants

sinaran terang yang menemaniku sepanjang tidur. rugi tak beli mende alah ni bebanyak masa kat penang arituh.

Selsema babi betul!

Siut tak...

Lepas tengok He's Just Not that Into You, aku berazam untuk tidak mengingati SA (too Much) and wondering why he doesn't call/sms. Anyway, dalam tengah2nak lena tu tetiba ada bunyik sms masuk, sms daripada dia.

"Awak
akan
gembire
bila
awak
tau ade org
syg
awk

ade org
rindu
awak

ade org
suke
awak

tp
rase lebih
gembire bile
tau
adeo rg
x pernah
lupekan
awak..."

Rasa macam selsema babi tak?? Ish laa.. macam mana nii?? Dah la masa tu tgh lagu Liz Phair-Why Can't I dalam ipod. Terus rasa nak pengsan.

why can't i breathe
whenever i think about you
why can't i speak
whenever i talk about you
it's inevitable
it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
so tell me
why can't I breathe
whenever I think about you

WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT YOU????

I Know You Want Me (eceh)

A blessing in disguise

Had some sort of argument with a colleague recently. Maybe both of us were distressed so that silly things become more complicated plus PMS on both side (i think so). Anyway, what turned out to be my first day puasa without my family won't jadi after all. She cancelled to exchange her rotation for oncall with me. So i can go back home for puasa after all. Alhamdulillah.

Can't wait to buka puasa with my family next week!!!

I had to get that out.

*ni namanya posting under influence of caffeine*

Dear U,

Macam mana nak kata ek? You make me looking forward to go to work everyday. When everytime I see your car parked at the parking lot, I know that you're within 100 metres (at least) radius and the chances of bumping into you anywhere is very likely. I'd SOB-ed whenever I see you from afar and my oh-so-cool attitude is *poof* gone whenever you're near.

What the hell am I going to do about you?

Birthday SMSes

aku sudah genap 26 tahun pada 1 ogos lepas. Alhamdulillah i make it till today. No clinical manifestation of depression, no nervous breakdown whatsoever ataupun life-long trauma. Some frens remembered, some frens don't, adatlah. To those who remembered, thank you so much, to those who didn't, nak wat camna.
Some of the SMSes i received during my birthday;

"Hepi bosday!" from Azrin. Simple as that.

"12 hours since u've been 26, feel any different? Dun worry u'll feel it soon. As u get older, the senses become less sensitive. Ahaks, jk! Many happy returns!" from G. Siut tak?

"Epi bufday 26th, sis! :) Semoga hidup sentiasa dirahmati-Nya..em..huhu.." from Fiqa my brother's gf. Ain't that Sweet?

" Hepi2 besday 2 you!" from Angah. Mesej awek die lagi panjang. Aparaa~~

" Happy birthday inaaa! :) MANA?? MANA?!!" from Michelle. Lawak ni hanya dia, aku ngan Kim je yang paham.

"Aku harap umur ko yang ke29 dah kawin cz Farah akan kawin bla bla bla....." yang ni daripada kezen aku yang sebaya nama Idah. Dah kawen dan beranak. Thanks a lot for setting up the 'pressurized' benchmark doh!

"I pray to Allah grant ur MIND free from WORRY, a HEART free from SADNESS, a soul free from SIN, a BODY free from ILLNESS" from Ana. Thanks thanks~

yang paling first sampai dan paling special adalah dari Oze... thanks :) too private to be mentioned here. Rindu kat ko!

Seventeen-Selalu Mengalah

Jelaskan Padaku Isi Hatimu
Seberapa Besar Kau Yakin Padaku
Untuk Tetap Bisa Bertahan Denganku
Menjaga Cinta Ini

Pertengkaran Yang Terjadi
Seperti Semua Salahku
Mengapa Selalu Aku Yang Mengalah
Tak Pernahkah Kau Berfikir
Sedikit Tentang Hatiku
Mengapa Ku Yang Harus Selalu Mengalah
Pantaskah Hatiku Masih Bisa Bersamamu

Jelaskan Padaku Isi Hatimu
Seberapa Besar Kau Yakin Padaku
Untuk Tetap Bisa Bertahan Denganku
Menjaga Cinta Ini

Mengapa Selalu Aku Yang Mengalah
Tak Pernahkah Kau Berfikir
Sedikit Tentang Hatiku
Mengapa Ku Yang Harus Selalu Mengalah
Pantaskah Hatiku Masih Bisa Bersamamu
2X

So little time...

Peh. Lama dah tak memblogging. Banyak mende nak kene buat, masa dan mood membataskan segala2. Mula bergiat aktif dalam netball, main untuk team hospital. Saja je nak ader aktiviti petang2 selain tido dan melepak tengok tv lepas kerja.
Anyway,sangat2 minat kat lagu ni lepas tertengok citer 'Rahasia Pelangi' kat TV3. Macam akan ikut je citer ni :)

Tercipta Untukku-Ungu

Bila Kau Tidak Disampingku-Sheila On 7

sangat minat SO7 dulu. especially this song and other one, Kita (other album).



and minat bangatt sama Duta. oh la la...

Search in Jengka

who wud've tot that the greatest band, a living legend of a rock star in Malaysia wud perform in Jengka? Kenapa ek depa pilih Jengka? tapi memang sangat laa hot kat Jengka even before the concert itself. Budak2 methadone tak abes2 cakap pasal Search.
the concert was held yesterday, may 16th. aku tak pergi pun. saja pegi tgk ekspo next to the stadium. orang punya la ramai. siap sekeliling padang orang panjat kereta nak peek through. memang la the biggest event of the year in Jengka. caya la luuu~

kepada semua guru2 di luar sana, Selamat Hari Guru!!

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

oh bulan
enggan melayan diriku lagi
pabila
airmata membasahi pipi
dan lagu lagu di radio
seolah olah memerli aku
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaan benci ini
sebenarnya cinta
yang masih
bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
disebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga
merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah
jatuh ke bumi
disaat kau benar benar mahu pergi
seperti
ku bernafas dalam air

dan sebenarnya
aku rindu
aku tak mampu
tanpamu

*dush! dush! dush! macam kena sebijik2 kat aku lirik lagu ni...*

i take that back.

aku dah tak nak amek tau pape dah pasal depa. full stop. i am such an idiot!

How are you with him?

Nak tanya sangat soklan ni kat seseorang tapi ego ku menahan.

hey you.long time no see

bak kata Ezo, aku tengah mengayuh. kayuh kene perlahan2, jangan bagi jatuh kot. but at the rate i'm cycling now, cam abang beca je. tahap bersiar2. mungkin aku kene belajar bersabar. Kalo ada, ada la. kalo takde, nak wat camne? Sedang bersiar2 tu mungkin aku akan terjumpa sesuatu, mana tau :)

A rainy day spent indoors spell trouble?

Me sleeping peacefully

Besok cuti. Ingat nak lepak jap kat kuantan ngan syera. Cadangnya nak tgk wayang. Aku pun sedaya mungkin nak kuar dari Jengka. Sesakkan napas!

Beban

susah kan nak simpan rahsia? terutama sekali rahsia yang melibatkan perkara2 yang kita tak suka. tak suka sangat sampai nak terbocorkan rahsia tuh. pendam dalam hati akan memakan diri sendiri. nak sangat carik orang yang takkan sesekali membocorkan rahsia yang dipendam nih. nak nak kalo orang yang kita simpan rahsia dia nih orang sekeliling kita, yang ajak kita makan, yang ajak kita jalan2. tambah lagi rahsia ni mengenai die dan orang yang kita suka, suka sangat2 sampai kita tak perasan. tak perasan sampai bila kita dengar je pasal rahsia pasal depa ni, kita rasa pedih dalam hati, rasa nak menangis mengadu kat orang lain, rasa nak maki2 derang atau orang len, atau lain-lain lagi. kita rasa dengan mengetahui rahsia tu, kita secara automatiknya telah mengetahui bahawa kita telah diperbodoh-bodohkan. mungkin derang tak berniat begitu, tapi itulah yang kita rasakan.

penatnya simpan rahsia diorang ni. hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui.

Thinking of You-Katy Perry

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a
taste of perfection
Like an apple
hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd
like to stay...

+damn.tak sangka sore die sedap n lagu ni memang marvellous!+

things that i wud do to turn back time

bulan ini adalah bulan yang hectic untuk aku. 3 weddings to attend in 3 weekends meaning no balik kampung-lah. keje yang bertangguh2 sudah menampakkan piling upnya, dengan meeting yang asik tertunda, dengan yie lin n aZRin takder untuk 3 hari berturut2 lepas ni, aihh~ penatnya i...
baru balik dari melaka dengan azrin n kak mimah. pergi ke sana lepas kenduri faiz kat keratong 10,muadzam. seronok jugakla lepak2 melaka tapi sekejap sgt. maybe next time leh full throttle tour melaka puas2. melaka sgt panas sekarang. ended up sgt exhausted masa balik, and aku on-off selsema 3 days in a row. ni baru rasa sihat sket.

Sixth Sense-Tanpa

Read

Tanpa Lyrics

here.

i can just listen to this song over and over again~

Resah yang ku ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti

Meski pagi itu indah
Tapi akan sunyi tanpamu
Menemani aku sepi

Tanpa...
Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa...
Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa....
Dirimu aku mati (x2)

Kini berat benar kurasakan
Dalam relung hatiku tak temu
Aku tak mengerti

Takut aku jauh dari dirimu
Dan kau tinggalkan aku sendiri
Tanpa mu aku mati

Weekend 17 & 18 January 2009

spent the 2 days working. still haven't finished reading Twilight. kalo aku tengok movie dier maybe aku akan lebih excited kot. but slowly i'm picking up the 'excitementness' yang azrin ada towards that movie (she's the owner of the book anyway). sweet innocent teenage love isn't exactly my thing tapi okaylaa. reminiscence la untuk teenage love affair aku.
this week i've came to realize something. i'm in great danger of having infatuation over this guy. the same guy i've mentioned before. i like him more than i think i should. coz i have this crazy tachycardia, breathlessness when he's within my eyesight. hari tu aku pergi department die not knowing that he's there sebab ada hal. then aku sangat la breathless, menggigil bila aku buat something which is beyond my control. this is absolute crazy. azrin sangat2 marahkan aku. how can i like this guy in 3 weeks? memang absolute gila. dats why i said i like this guy more than i think i should. bummer!

First Entry of 2009

it has been awhile since i last wrote. nothing much happened i guess. took a long break before new year and celebrated (not really, i slept at 11) new year in Serdang. jadik driver for my mum during the long break. pegi balik alor setar in 2 days, then pegi kuantan balik hari. gila betul.
awal muharam and new year pun dah lepas. takde ape resolution pun. i don't believe in it pung. but i really really like this petua i got from a fren of mine, on how to be happy. and Allah knows how desperate i am to be happy instead of moping around feeling depressed. nak nak lepas kene rejek nieee~

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Sleep for at least 7 hours each day.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2008.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink plenty of water.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
18. Smile and laugh more.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
27. GOD Heals everything.
28. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
29. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
30. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
31. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
32. The best is yet to come.
33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
34. Do the right thing!
35. Call your family often.
36. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
37. Each day give something good to others.
38. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
39. When you wake up in the morning, thank GOD for being alive.
40. Share this with everyone you care about.